FROM THE MIND OF MADNESS
Smashwords Edition
© Chris T. Barber 2011
Published by: Chris T. Barber
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Thank you for respecting the hard work of this poet.
Dedicated to
my late wife
Sandra Barber
and
my beloved brother
Corwin Barber
SUICIDAL PAIN
The darkness falls and I’m all alone
For when the darkness came the light had gone,
Now I feel that I’m going insane
Because all that is left is this suicidal pain.
With all this pain in my tortured soul
And a heart so cold,
I’ve nothing to gain
Except the misery of this suicidal pain.
Now that my soul is dead, there will be unbearable pain
In my tortured soul there will be gain,
For then I won't even feel insane
For what took my life was this suicidal pain.
Now that my tortured soul has been laid to rest
I feel just like the rest,
Who’ve entered the darkness before me?
Now that I enjoy the misery of this suicidal pain
I now have the darkness to gain.
THE SOUL KEEPER
Take this night for it is my eyes
Then you will see not what is right,
But all that are lies.
Drink this poison for this is my life blood,
Which will fill your soul with all that is dark.
You are no longer innocent
For you sold your soul to me,
I don’t to see your body
For it’s your soul I want to see.
Now I lay you down to sleep
Where you wimp and you weep,
You beg to make a deal
But I know how you feel,
For your lost soul you could not keep.
In heaven there will be no more angels
In hell there will be no more demons,
For there will only be me; the keeper of souls.
So at the end of time
When all the lost souls shall be mine,
Your heroes and saviours
Shall bow down at my feet,
For on this day even your so-called messiah
Shall know my name is…
The soul keeper.
WE NEVER SEEM TO SEE
7am and I wake up in a sweat
Waiting for the girl of my dreams
To be with me for all eternity,
I need her so badly that I can’t go on
When will she be mine?
Can you tell me what I have to do?
To make her mine?
We may talk but we never seem to see
Each other the way we want to
The night time comes and
She’s still not mine.
DREAMS
Girl of my dreams
Won’t you come true for me?
Make my life complete
Open my eyes so I can see
The beauty that stands before me.
I see you every single night
But you're not really there,
I hear you call my name
You sound like a thousand angels singing,
I hear you and I have to stand and stare.
You're there in my dreams
But why can't you be real?
Put your hand on my heart
Then you will know how I feel,
When I am awake I miss your tender touch.
In my dreams you have the sweetest kiss
You have the smile that could light up the world,
The way you hold me makes my heart pound
I would move mountains to be with you,
I would do anything just to make my dreams come true.
Heaven could grow dark
And hell could freeze over,
That wouldn't mean a thing
Just as long as I could have
The girl of my dreams.
THE DEPTHS OF HELL
Take me down to the depths of hell
Where the flames are burning bright,
Let my blood flow from my veins
And let my soul be in pain for a thousand years.
Let my spirit die a disturbing death
And my mind hear the voices of a thousand dead angels,
May my body burn in a furnace
Along with your so called Messiah.
May your God damn me for an eternity
In the depths of hell,
May I never see the face of God
In this miserable life of mine.
Let the demons speak the words of damnation
Let the angels burn in hell,
And let the Devil rip my soul apart
And take me to the depths of hell.
DREAMS (Part 2)
Dreams are all I have
And not the girl that I want,
Life’s so unfair,
Girl of my dreams
Come true for me.
The tears fall down
When you’re not around,
I wait for the night time to come
Where I know that you will be there
Waiting for me.
I long for the dreams
To take me away
To where your heart
Can be with mine.
The sunshine’s, but it might as well rain
Without you by my side,
Why do you have to stick to my dreams
When we could be together now,
I need you so badly.
DREAMS part 3
Where are you, dream girl?
Won’t you come to me
And be my bride?
It kills me not having you
When you should be mine.
I need your tender touch
And I need your sweet kisses,
I can’t wait for you to appear
In front of my eyes,
Hold me until the break of dawn.
Where do you go
When the sun comes up?
Can’t you stay a little longer
In these arms of mine?
Won’t you stay with me?
You’re there when I fall asleep
But you’re gone when I awake,
Hold my hand tight
Until we leave the night
And enter the daytime.
MILES APART
A thousand miles apart
And yet they have each others hearts,
On the phone for hours on end
Yet they only started out as friends.
Love letters through the net
But some of these they cannot get,
Distance means nothing to love
Especially when it comes from above.
When they could not accept love
Love accepted them,
It tore them apart from the inside out
It turned their lives upside down.
The sun never sets on their love
For their love is eternal,
Their love has come from god
A love that no one can destroy.
GIRL NAMED SUE
I'm in love with a girl named Sue
But what should I do?
Should I take my chances
And tell her how I feel?
But what if she rejects me?
Should I tell her face to face?
But what if she slaps me?
Should I tell her in a letter?
But what if she doesn't receive it?
What should I do?
She has the eyes that
Could put you in a trance,
She has the voice that
Would make angels dance,
I want that girl named sue.
Will I ever get that girl named sue
Or will she never want me in her life?
Will I be her husband?
And will she be my wife?
I need that girl named Sue.
JUST ANOTHER VICTIM
Another one for the road
I hear you say,
Even though you have 5 miles to drive
You drink every single day,
Don't you know that you're gonna die,
You say it's because you're
Just another victim
Of societies lies.
Just another victim
of your own weaknesses
that’s the bottom line,
you’re crying is annoying
just another victim
that’s all you whine.
Give it up now
You hear me sigh,
Don't have another drink
Don’t be just another victim
Of your own pathetic lies,
Stop it now
Before you die.
DAMN
Damn the angels for they taunt me
They tell me of heavens riches,
Why can’t they just let me be?
Why can’t they just die?
This is what I need to know.
They sing songs of life when I am near death
Why can’t god forsake me
Or make my eyes blind and my ears deaf?
Damn those angels straight to hell
May they burn for ten thousand years.
Damn you god for sending these angels
I hear their voices within my head,
Damn all the lost souls that pass heavens gates
The faces of a thousand souls
Roam around in my head,
They drive me insane
I wish that I was dead.
DREAMS COME TRUE
Where are you
When I need you the most?
When I came to you
You made my dreams come true.
What have I done?
That’s so wrong
That you left my life?
Won’t you come back to me?
Since you left my side
All I've done is cry,
Now I feel that
My heart is going to die,
Come back to me
And make my dreams come true.
HOW CAN IT BE?
How can it be
That I mean so much,
When this world is so dark
You pick me,
Your love consumes
My mortal body until there’s
None of me
And all of you,
How can it be
That when I stray
You call me back
Into the comfort of arms.
THE VALLEY OF LIGHT
Hold my hand as I guide you
Through the valley of light
Watch as my angels
Devour all that is good,
See the holy trinity
As it falls from the heavens
My children will speak
The words of temptation.
Damnation will fall upon
All of gods children
As they beg for mercy
From the lord of darkness,
Hell will freeze over
As the heavens grow dark
The lost souls shall be mine
As I end all of the madness.
The sun shall grow dim
As the moon turns blood red
All of mankind can run
But they cannot hide,
For my darkness is everywhere
Even within their souls
All of gods angels
Will feel their hearts turn black.
DREAMS (Part 4)
Now that the dreams have finally gone
I have lost you forever,
The dreams of you have left me
How do I cope without you?
There’ll be no more kissing your sweet lips
And no more touching your smooth skin,
I remember the final dream
When you cried and said `goodbye`.
You kissed me gently
And you held me in your arms,
Your heart was beating with mine
As you said `I love you`.
Now that the dreams are over
I will see my dream girl no more,
Your eyes will never again
And now all I will fell is pain.
TORTURED IN HELL
Down in the depths of hell
The flames are burning bright,
The demons they taunt me
Telling me how it could have been
Saying how I could have lived in the light.
The flames burn me
As Lucifer tortures my soul,
Where is my god now that I need him?
The pain and suffering is unbearable
I cannot take this any more.
There are many tortured souls with me
All are being tormented by these demons,
Where are the angels now to protect us?
Are they being tortured along with these many souls?
Why won’t God help our souls from being tortured in hell?
GODS OF WAR