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The Blackheart Poetess:
A Poetry Collection
of
Love, Loss and Lies

By
April Denton

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Table of Contents


Love and Heartache


The Diablo Verses


Sex and Sexuality


Death


Nature and the Natural


Dedications


About the Author

Love and Heartache


The poetry in this section is about love and the death of love. Throughout my life I have had and lost many loves, some I walked away from and others ran me over.


We loved with a love that was more than love.”

Edgar Allan Poe


When one door of happiness closes, another opens; But often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.”

Helen Keller


Hesitant

So afraid to love you,
so scared to need.
My heart is with you,
but my head says heed.
Tearing me apart at the seams,
can't be here, can't go there.
Is your love what it seems?
Only for you I care.
Tell me baby that you love me,
or watch me walk away.
With you I want to be,
only your heart will make me stay.


Angel

I can almost feel you no matter the distance,
I want to touch you to know you are real.
Don't leave me here in this cold place,
longing for you and your embrace.
Angel of mine come to me, I need you so.
Don't deny me wrap your wings around me hold me longer.
I will be here only a moment and then gone forever,
don't deny me sweet angel I want you as my lover.
Loving me could be the end of you.
God will make you fall for your pain,
come to me sweet angel my time is near.
I love you sweet angel,
don't cry we will be together again.


Hypocrite

I love you like no other,
I will never let you down.
Though you see right through me,
I loved you then and now.
Don't act like you don't know,
you wrote about this too.
You can act like you're an angel,
but you can do no good.


The End

You leave me alone in this empty place,
memories fading except the one of your face.
That day I said "I love you" for the very first time,
the day I knew you would always be mine.
Now leave me dear you have dreams to follow,
and your depart will bring deathly sorrow.
For you I have loved from the beginning of time,
and the ending is the last of this rhyme.


Desire

I think I love you,
but I know you're forbidden.
Like Eve took the apple,
I want to make you mine.
Your lips are like honey,
your tongue like wine.
Your touch like my first,
your embrace is divine.


Alone

Been walking down this road far too long,
my hearts been broken they did me wrong.
I waited in the shadows for the day I would meet the 'one',
for the day that you would come.
Please rescue me from this place,
and take away the emptiness.


Leave This Place

I hate myself for liking you,
for everything I want to do.
It is wrong.
I say no but;
I can't help what my heart wants to know.
In the past I loved you so,
and now I cannot let you go.
Until that day you leave this place,
I will forever adore your face.


Deception

I'm sitting in my sea of misery,
thinking of only you.
How you brought me to this place,
the deception you put me through.
All the blame you place on me,
your lies will set you free.
So take my hand and pull me in,
all your lies I can see in your grin.


The Answer

Your beauty causes my stupidity.
Your lips make me high.
How I longer for your touch,
I'm going to make you mine.
Your eyes pierce my soul.
Your voice makes me weak.
For you, my love,
you're the answer that I seek.


Invisible

I'm just an afterthought in your thoughtless world,
you break me down and rip out my heart.
The outside changes to adapt to what you need.
The inside torn and now I bleed.
Don't pretend like you care,
those lies I don't need to believe.


Catch-22

Stuck in this spiraling catch-22,
so many questions don't know what to do.
At every turn I only find confusion,
was my sanity only an illusion?
I seek comfort in you,
only for us to argue.
I can't conform to what you need,
these dreams I will not heed.


Hurt

I had the world at my fingertips risking all,
taking a chance on love.
I gave it up after just a moment with you,
forsaking everything making the sacrifice.
What did you leave behind?
Breaking my heart for all the wrong reasons,
tearing me apart can't you see me bleeding?


Forever

I had the world at my fingertips risking all,
taking a chance on love.
I gave it up after just a moment with you,
forsaking everything making the sacrifice.
What did you leave behind?
Breaking my heart for all the wrong reasons,
tearing me apart can't you see me bleeding?


Our Love

My love for you undying and true,
our hearts beat together just me and you.
I lay beside him drowning in his tears,
what went wrong why do I fear?
How did I lose you?
What did I do?


I Wrote You

I wrote you to tell you I love you,
I guess you didn't hear.
I'm leaving tomorrow.
I guess you didn't care,
but I will miss you.
I love you!
Guess you didn't know,
I guess you didn't care.
But if you do,
tell your new girl I hope she loves you as much as I did
and still do.
But if you don't hear now,
you never will.
Love you till I die.
Love you till tomorrow.
Don't write back.
Just watch the news,
tomorrow you will see what I mean.
Bye


Uncertain

Ever since last night I can't seem to be at ease.
I don't know if it's you, but lately my mind hasn't been at peace.
It's been pacing with uncertainty,
uncertainty that will not cease.
You keep my heart racing and my body aching.
Being with you last night has been a few of the best moments of my life,
a life of uncertainty.


Destiny Dies

Destiny is an idea that we cannot comprehend.
It catches us off guard and throws us offhand.
Destiny was a dream given to us as a child.
It runs with the wind, it grows free and wild.
Destiny is a lie given to fools who don't wonder,
to fools who don't ask why.
Destiny was given for hope, but hope is a lie.


Time to Say

It's time to say,
to say what you thought was love was really hate.
It's time to say,
to say I don't want you so go away.
It's time to say,
it won't work out.
It's time to say,
what's done is done so please don't stay.


One Night

It took only one night,
I got to love you.
One white lie, want to die with you.
15 minutes too late, now I die for you.


Need

Look in your eyes, feel the heat.
Burning down, right through me.
Loved you so long ago, now again feel the need.
Have your touch, sweet relief.
Now with you, I feel our hearts beat.


Two Not one

Far across the room,
remember the old times with you.
Lips burning with hot desire,
my mind back with you.
Time slipped away,
with all that we do.
Close attraction,
our bodies not two.


You

I dreamed you,
met you.
I want you,
have you.
I love you.
I fucked you.
I killed you.
Now I am you,
it's all you.


Love 2003

I ran away from the pain inside,
our good memories were only lies.

Our time beaten blue,
love died 3 years ago.

All the time I chose fear,
what perished?

Was it love or was it tears?

My struck face bleeding,
truth scarred.

Death is you.

The gruesome blackness of your soul has let me know,
now my bell will surely toll.


Gone

He went away and took my forever,
love and devotion now it's gone.
Sickness and suicide.
The pain I try to hide,
all the shit I keep deep inside.
Back in town,
now what's wrong?


Shattered Memories

I stand in the shadow of my life,
I look back at what had been mine.
As I see shattered memories of what was pushed away long ago.
The pain that was brought to me,
scared away the fear.
Sadness comforted me in my black plague.
The hand that bruised me was put away.
As I look over my life wondering what went wrong.
I can see a black memory of me smiling back at you.


New Life

It's hard to believe,
believe in anything.
Being with you has made me see,
see there's hope.
Hope to be more than me.
The person who was forced to be.
Through your eyes new life breathes,
breathes in our bodies what we will be.


New Love

Just one moment in your eyes,
I forget about bad about all the lies.
Through you I see hope.
I know with you I belong.
The bad I did the wrong I've done,
all the pain was so I could learn.
I will know love,
it lies within you.


Love Shines

All my life I've longed for love,
there you stood all alone.
You heard my voice calling you.
Through all the pain,
you reached for me.
Our love shining for all to see.
You hold tight to love,
you hold tight to me.


To Find

In this life we're given on chance,
to search for love to make our plans.
To find someone to share our lives
to know what love feels like.
To love like you have only dreamed,
I find you and you found me.


My Forever

How did I live my life without you,
not taking a single breath.
My heart won't beat till I'm beside you,
till I put this fear to rest.
Nothing seems true when we're not together.
I know in my heart we are forever.
I thought you were my friend,
what all you though was "I love her".
In my eyes you were a child,
now I see my lover.


Only Me

One moment in your eyes,
a single passionate kiss.
My life before you didn't exist,
you are all I see,
you are all I breathe.
In this moment next to you,
I know there was a reason for me.
My life created to love only you.
My pain losing sight I cannot see,
I wonder aimlessly,
guided by your heart.
I lost you twice this time I play for keeps.
This time I will not let you go,
you will love only me.

An Angel

An angel was sent to save me,
that angel is you.
You were sent to show me what love is supposed to be,
to show that love is real.
That love is you and me.


Sacrifice

Was my suffering not an indication that I cared.
What drastic measure did I need to carry out?
Was cutting my heart out just so you could see it bleed not enough.
Crawling for eternity in fire doesn't speak devotion.
My lips calling only your name isn't dedication
My fingers bleed clawing for your,
my grip isn't a sign of love.
Does my adoration require my sacrifice?


Nights Shroud

So far away though I hear your call for me,
your pain and sadness pulling me.
We lie down and together breathe us in.
When I close my eyes I see what you see.
Your heartbeat resting against my lips.
I feel you,
your hot tear falling into my palm.
My tongue uttering your pleas,
the darkness tugging.
You’re there in the shadows behind nights shroud lonely and cold.
My reflection in your eyes
Lying there shaking,
your hand reaching for me.
I can hear you though you don't make a sound.
My lips uttering your words,
only my name.
Pain consuming you holding you down.


The Light

Time a barrier that can't be crossed,
a connection through the ages that won't be lost.
I run to you my love,
shattering hates icy hold.
Our eyes meet melting your soul,
hands and lips tangles.
I traded my wings to love,
for you bring I bring the light into your life.


All Alone

I know you're there I can feel you crying,
lost and lonely forgotten by the world.
I have to find you before I lose myself.
You were cast out for loving,
forging all alone in a darkened world.
I left my world,
without you there is no life.


Trading Eternity

I grow weary,
your love gives me strength.
You traded immortality for my kiss.
Losing everything so you could hold me.
I owe you my life,
trading eternity to walk a dead land with you.
I feel your breath upon my neck,
you are growing weak.
You're lying cold and motionless
If you're gone I will die alone.
I hold you,
my tears falling on your lips.
A sigh escaping from your body,
and you turn to me.
Bodies close, lips closer
New life grows


Your Dream

Seeking his dream he crushes mine
Love once full,
fading into empty promises
How can I pull you close when you run away
The hopes for our lives falling upon deaf ears
Bleeding me of my time
Turn truth into darkened years
Love once given for all eternity,
found bitter yearning and passed by me
Can't I be enough for you,
my life
When all I wanted was you by my side




Heaven & Hell

Our love forbidden,
heaven and hell collide.
I fall and you rise,
our gods fight for control.
He grabs me ripping out my wings,
laughing as I fall.
"Do you still love your broken angel now?"
Tattered and torn your broken angel cries.
My god shows mercy for our love,
freeing me from his hold.
I stare upon you, "he spared my life"
You reach out pulling my bruised body to you.
Your kiss smoldering my tears,
your fire burning my lips.
The flame flickers in your eyes.
The demon holds his broken angel,
her halo falls to the ground.


Dark Angel

My angel left me, falling
our love cast aside.
His wings no longer wrap around me as we become one.
No more will he whisper in my ear,
nor do I feel his kiss grace my lips.
Our bed is cold and the silence deadly.
I scream out his name,
echoing off the walls.
Tears burning falling to the bed.
The room turns black as every tear falls,
the world around me dies.
My breath grows shallow,
barely passing my lips.
My heartbeat becoming a whisper,
eyes darkening
color fading.
Tears turn to blood,
draining my body of life.
Soul twisting dying
the light dimming.
They condemn the tortured to hell.
Cast out rolling the dead angel shatters
the dark angel dies




Darkness Falling

Darkness settles in me
Soul empty and cold
Heart bleeds breaking
Tears falling around me like rain
My love has gone away
Bitter and damned for eternity
Walking the hard road alone
Seeking only the warmth of his touch
His smell as he holds me close
Connecting
Fading
Light dimming
Wondering
Roaming
Deaths icy grip upon me
Falling
I utter only your name
Angel of mine save me
Breath ceases
My angel calling
Seeking
Finding me cold and grim
Wrapping his wings around my soul
Darkness fading
He'll pay the price
His halo crumbles around him
Wings torn from his back
Giving eternity for his dark love


End of Time

Looking back through the years,
all the pain all the tears
How could so much time pass us by.
It seems just like yesterday the first time I looked in your eyes
You're my heart my everything,
and I'm missing being in your arms
When I'm by your side it seems alright
My life was nothing till your came along
I'll call you mine till the end of time


Don’t

Don’t think you know who I am
I only show the first layer
The “me” underneath you cannot handle
Don’t act like an angel
Your sins written on your face
What will you think when you see the real me?
The identity I seek will leave you behind
Don’t ask for forgiveness
That hour has passed
Don’t get on your knees
I no longer hear your cries
Don’t shut that door
It’s been closed a long time


Only a Moment

I can almost feel you no matter the distance,
I want to touch you to know you are real.
Don't leave me here in this cold place,
longing for you and your embrace.
Angel of mine come to me, I need you so
Don't deny me wrap your wings around me
and hold me forever.
I will be here only a moment and then gone forever,
don't deny me sweet angel I want you as my lover.
Loving me could mean the end of you,
God will make you fall for your pain,
come to me sweet angel my time is near.
I love you sweet angel,
don't cry we will be together again


Is This Deceiving?

I let you in that was my first mistake
I know to not open up
No one has seen the me on the inside
Feelings I should have never felt
I can't forget what once was
I won’t let go of yesterday
Memories don’t fade so easily
I meet you in my dreams
Is this deceiving?


Invisible I Am

Tears fall
Heart aches
Hear me scream without a sound
Pounding fists,
against the wall
Scraping knees
crawling in the dirt
Clawing,
dragging
Alone and hurt
Can you see me?
Only the mirror can
My world,
the other side
Seek you,
from me you hide


The Giant You Are

Again you plague my mind
Your face a bitter memory
I move next to you
Hypnotically swaying to the beat
Bodies pressed together
Feel the heat
Towering above me
Sheltered in your arms
One moment forever warm
Hand against my cheek
Heart against my forehead
This can't be real


Heart to Heart

Brown eyes beautiful
Smile like the devil
Twisted sense of humor
Simply wonderful
Whispers "I love you"
Gentle embrace
Heart to heart
Our love so true
Time no barrier
Oceans no obstacle
Nothing between us
No one could make me happier


Goodbye

He's been gone far too long,
I'm struggling to hold on to his memory.
His face fading fast,
the ways his lips on my cheek felt.
His voice in my ear.
I remember the day he left,
but I don't remember him leaving


If…

If I told you that I loved you,
would you care,
If I told you that I needed you,
would you be there.
If I told you that you were the one,
would you doubt me.
If I told you I wanted more,
would you think I'm selfish?
If I told you forever,
would you think "too long"?


On and On

Head spinning
Time keeps ticking
Reality fading
Truth escaping
Lost wandering
Faith exploring
I hear you calling
See you searching
Path winding
Lies spreading
Line dividing
Lust engulfing
Pleasure seeking
Mind fucking


Disappear

Twirling, turning and you're gone.
Luring, calling the sirens song.
Lover, yearning what went wrong.
Pleading, searching with me you belong.
Returning, begging I say "so long".


From the Lips of a Liar

How can you say you love me?
You wanted to destroy it all
Be my knight in shiny armor behind the scenes
Don't pretend it is okay
How could a giant like you fill the void he would leave
Wars weren't won in a day
Don't knock down my defenses
Don't spread your lies
Stand back see the big picture
Is losing worth loving me
Is winning worth the pain
Never ending sorrow
Sun sets and days reset
There will never be another
I can see you on the other side
The mirror cracks
My sweet love
Give me your hand
Let me pull you into my web of lies
Spinning night and day
Cut the act
Your armor tarnished
The mirror crumbles
Behold the monster


My Lovers Gone

Thoughts of you a bitter memory,
longing for what cannot be.
Anger growing,
heartache showing.
Words you couldn't say,
in the night you slipped away.
Letter on the pillow,
"till I die".


Come Back to Me

I lay my head in my hands,
and sob the sorrow away.
I know what I lost,
and why you cannot stay.
I know that I lied,
and made you feel weak.
I know that I tried,
only the truth now I speak.
I cannot take away the pain,
or change the past.
I cannot repair the strain,
on our love I applied.
Take me for who I am,
even when I'm a mess.
Desire our love,
forget all the stress.




The Dream

Lie down,
lie down next to me.
I'm struggling,
hoping you cannot see.
I'm falling,
falling into the dream.
Losing my reality.
Thoughts so deep inside,
feelings that I cannot hide.
I'm sailing,
sailing away from sanity.
Falling,
I'm falling into the dream.


The Easy Road

As I sit here tears stream down my face
Lonely and lost in this empty place
You've wandered
Leaving me behind
Don't turn around
Don't tell another lie
Too many years
I took the easy road
Loved and lost
Scared and cold


King Deceiver

King of deception,
ruler of your ignorant nation.
Sitting on your throne of lies,
recalling all your goodbyes.
Crowned by a temptress,
honoring your mistress.
Sipping your goblet of death,
watching your last breath.


Never Ending

If I fell in love with you would you turn me away
Would you tell me I'm your only one and then not stay
Will I wake up tomorrow with you by my side?
or will you leave, run and hide
say that you love me and I will be true
for all of these years I have loved only you



Fairy Tales and Lies

One by One the walls fall down
Tumbling, tumbling all around
My fairy tale a broken dream
My hero not what he seems
Mirror, mirror on the wall
who’s my greatest love of all?
Tempt me with your apple
Eat your poison seed
Kiss to awaken me from this sleep
For who awakens me my heart to keep
My dear prince rescue me
the mirror lies only you I see


Went Away

He went away and took my forever,
love and devotion now it's gone.
Sickness and suicide.
The pain I try to hide,
all the shit I keep deep inside.
Back in town,
now what's wrong?


*****

The Diablo Verses


These poems are written for and dedicated to my Dark Prince, my muse. A dark artist, with a devious mind, and a warm heart.
These words are forever yours my Jack Skellington

“And will we ever end up together?


no, I think not, it's never to become

For I am not the one”


El Diablo
Devil seducer with blood-shot eyes,
your fiery body between my thighs.
Flames falling from your lips,
body explorer caressing with fingertips.
My soul sucker,
mind fucker.
Dirty beast from the pits of hell,
I'm wounded prey captivated by your spell.
Sold my soul to be in your bed,
immortal forever my lover never dead.
Come to me Devil I want to play.
For you I lust, to you I pray.
My Serpent how I long for your kiss,
forked tongue whispers a hiss.
El Diablo my darkest desire,
forever dwelling in hell fire


The Spark
Like a razor wire around my heart,
I let you in and you tore it apart.
As a moth to a flame,
I come for you I scream your name.
I'm burning with forbidden desire,
longing lusting for your fire.
Like puzzle pieces falling into place,
in the darkness I find your face.
Parted lips tongue calling,
for your mind and body I am falling.
I am the thoughts inside your head,
the lover tangled in your bed.
We are death dancing in the dark,
you're the flame and I am the spark.


Cocked and Loaded
You're like a drum beating in my head,
my body aching for your bed.
Cocked and loaded,
ready to blow.
Target set,
aiming for your soul.
You're the drug in my vein,
the high that I seek to obtain.
You're the one testing my will,
the need the want I must to fulfill.
For your lips I lust,
for your taste,
your touch,
your fuck


Bathed in Hellfire
I sit in the darkness and wait,
who is here at my gate?
The devil rapping at my door,
he has my soul and longs for more.
My body his next desire,
bathing me in his hellfire.
Obsession in his head,
hot lover in my bed.
Tasting his fiery skin,
lusting to let him in.
Thrusting pulsing going deep,
all my secrets he will keep.


Devil in My Soul
My soul is sick,
and you are the sickness.
Infecting my soul,
turning me black and cold.
You are the evil,
the shadow in the dark.
The monster hiding under my bed,
the nightmare inside of my head.
You are the tempting,
the seducer calling my name.
My body is yours,
my mind at your command.
Promising the world,
offering me your hand.
Demon lover,
fire in my heart.
Evil has infected me,
the devils inside my soul.
One taste of him,
and I lose control.


Burn My Halo
Heaven and hell collide,
and all I see is you.
Devilish good looks,
and horns on your head.
My heart stutters,
wings of white flutter.
One look into your eyes,
heaven will never be mine.
Diablo come to me,
take my soul.
Tear off my wings,
and burn my halo.
A life without your touch,
a million in the flame.
Come to me Prince of Darkness,
say my name.
Only for you will I give up Heaven,
and be cast out forever.
To have your hands upon me,
to know you're mine.


The Confession
You fill my soul,
with a hunger I cannot control.
I longer to drink you in,
to make you make you my newest sin.
Sexual desire,
burning in your lustful fire.
Bodies tangled in deaths embrace,
never wanting to leave this place.
You are the devil,
my nightmare fiend,
you are the beast,
the thief of dreams.
The dream from which I will never awake,
in my sleep my soul is yours to take.
My darkest obsession,
to the Priest you're my confession.


It is Yours to Take
Dark lover,
keeper of my heart.
Soul eater,
your fire burning in my mind.
Fiery fingertips on my face,
around my lips they trace.
Heathen god,
the games you play.
Your body pressed to mine,
whispering to me ‘for all time'.
Time and place,
do they align?
My keeper of secret desires,
of passions flame.
'Will you lead me astray?'
Abandon me,
and bury me away.
Oh, deathly prince,
I call for you.
I long to be by your side,
do with me what you will.
'My heart you can never steal.'
Bowing down,
'it is yours to take.'


Distance is Death
In your absence your name I call,
your words I long for.
The distance is death,
please take me now.
No going back,
no reason to lie.
No more pain,
no need to hide.
You my life hangs on the line,
your kiss can save me now.
The touch of your arms around me,
your deadly embrace.
Your lust like the ocean,
your body the waves.
The dark all around,
you wash over me.
Tangled,
I cannot speak.
Souls searching,
seeking a counterpart.
Could you be mine?


All For You
'Bleed for me?'
Every drop is yours.
'Worship me?'
I bow at your feet.
'Lust for me?'
See my body tremble with desire.
'Love me?'
You have my love
'Prove to me?'
Whatever you will, so shall it be
Every breath.
Every word.
Every touch.
Every tear.
They have always belonged to you.


The Everything
I feel you close,
but you are so far.
Just to touch you,
feel for all eternity.
Just a look,
the stars collide.
Gods jealous,
passion like ours forbidden.
Kiss of flames,
virgin and fierce.
Your embrace my haven,
my sanctuary.
Long for your love,
the taste of your skin.
Lust for your sweet words,
the everything.


Soul Seducer
Here I lay,
waiting and needing.
Heavy breaths,
the metronome of life.
Soul seducer,
fucking my life away.
Hungry lover,
owner of my heart.
Word weaver,
in my head.
Flesh to flesh,
burning hot.
Fire in your eyes,
devilish grin.
Perishing kiss,
death deliverer.
The everything,
the end of it all.


The Venom

I feel the burn setting in,
you pulse through my veins.
Hot spasms,
the change happens.
You are the venom,
the creator of thirst.
The summoning need,
to make life bleed.
You are the vampire,
the cold Black Death.
Icy touch,
frigid breath.
You are a whore,
peddling your poison.
Nails live knives,
digging into my spine.
Your bite,
sears into my soul.
Amazing lover,
turning me into stone.
Trembling release,
guttural growl.
Falling into me,
falling through you.
Digging deep,
blackened soul.
Careless animal,
belonging to another.
Frenzied fire,
hungry dick.


Graveyard Lust

In the graveyard where you roam,
I come to play.
Stroke of midnight,
the bodies rise.
The dead have come,
and so will I.
I see you standing there,
ushering me.
You know what I have come for,
and you want it too.
The gates of Hell cannot hold
a power such as you.
Your lust your driving force,
the hunger your only need.
Pulling me to you,
your fire igniting my core.
Rigid frame and muscles tight,
a body born of hell fire.
Cold headstone on which I rest,
body bent to your will.
Lovers deep thrust,
in climax grasp.
Walking dead,
watching our show.
Angry growl,
his juices flow.


The Bitter Memory

Eat your heart out,
you can't have mine,
my soul unbound,
cannot be chained.
Like the wind,
I roam.
Never settling,
never finding a home.
I am my own,
belonging to none.
Not a possession,
merely an obsession.
Time will not hold me,
I live in another life.
Karmic coincidences,
concealing fate.
A happiness
that cannot wait.
I see you,
you’re something I desire.
I will not wait for the devil,
I have demons of my own.
Sweet memory,
bitter on my lips.
Cannot have my body,
without my mind.
Cannot have love,
without lust.
Forging my own path,
that does not wind.
Straight road,
on my own.
I need no one,
no one t my side.
For one day,
my knight will come.
I am not blinded,
blinded by the thought of you.


Ancient Evil

In the hour of the dead,
my lover creepeth to my bed.
Clock tolls in the hall,
for his angel he doth call.
Ancient man forever young,
delicious words drip from his tongue.
Gorgeous lad from afar,
wished for him upon a star.
In the night he will come,
my otherworldly phantom.
Gentle embrace icy grip,
into his trance I will slip.
Passionate and fiery throes,
lustful moaning echoes.
Hands clasped around my back,
my heavenly soul turning black.
Corrupter of the pure,
my heart you will secure.


The Evil Truth

Evil come whisper in my ear,
I am ready to play.
How I wish you were mine,
touch and taste.
Feel your heat inside of me,
to know your love.
Dark Prince come rescue me,
in your Hell I long to be.
I can feel your breath upon my neck,
your hands around my thighs.
A burning kiss upon my breast,
a searing inside of me.
A thirst for you blood,
a hunger for your flesh.
To love evil,
is to become it.
Longing for your words,
delirious from your kiss.
Devil inside me,
soul full of sin.
Walking away from the light,
forever writhing in your flame.
Karmic malfunction,
escape from reality.
In my dreams,
you will be mine.
Your bite upon my breast,
your grasp upon my heart.
In me it all makes sense,
the lie you live.
Legs tangled,
our web of deceit.
Do they know what we do?
How we long to live in sin?
These words forever yours,
until we meet again.


The Gifts

Did those words just escape your lips?
Searching your eyes for the punch line.
How could you love someone like me?
A mere mortal loving a god.
A nothing,
a no one.
Your passion ever consuming,
your talent staggering.
A beautiful soul,
an evil man.
A contradiction,
beautiful enigma.
You are the stars in the sky,
and the kiss upon my lips.
The cool breeze pushing fall leaves,
you are the wish.
A fantasy I will forever live,
a dream within reality.
A driving hope,
the pouring rain.
Star-crossed lovers,
destined for pain.
I will be with you always,
the lingering thought.
Take from me what you will,
my words forever yours.
A soul a gift,
my heart a bonus.


*****

Sex and Sexuality


Poetry in this section is very expressive in sexual nature and some even have vulgar terminology. This section is not recommended for anyone under 18.

“Sex is emotion in motion.”.
Mae West



The Orgasm

Stop there.
Wait for me.
Tease these,
and you will see.
Touch here,
for relief I plea.
Move there,
set me free.


The Cold One

Cold skin
Black eyes
Icy touch
Warm thighs
Caressing you
Feel the need
You're my world
I will bleed
Draining me
Fucking you
My cold one
Love so true
Take me now
Die right here
My cold one
Nothing to fear
Immortality
Here we stay
Lusting
Need my prey
Tasting you
Needing more
Darkness comes
Frigid whore


The Liar

Fucking me
Fucking you
There is nothing else we can do
Lusting
Touching
Tasting
Sucking
Sweet like candy
Screaming my name
Open wide
Spread your love like honey
Kiss like wine
Tongue like fire
Taste like heaven
But she's a liar


My Lover

Your lips, stumbling
Eyes like an angel
Fire in your fingers
Your touch, burning
Body of a God
Mind of the devil
Your kiss, amazing
How are you my lover?
Men like you unheard of
Your sex, astounding


Lusting

Come to me baby
Get on your knees
I'll give it to you right
Make you beg me "please"
Caressing you
Feeling the heat
Taking you
Your juices sweet
No other lover
Can ever compare
For your lust
My only care


Dirty Soul

Father I must confess
Heal my soul
Love and lies
Innocence I stole
Touch and taste
On her knees
Hail Mary's can set you free
Calling your Father’s name
While riding me


The Siren

Lust summoning
Hear the sirens call
Head turning
Your heart she stole
Dark skin glistens
Body trembles
Dancing thighs beckon
She'll eat your soul
Pulse rising
Salty skin
Tongue exploring
Come within


Lost in My Lover

I crave your words,
your voice like the ocean
To see your love,
dripping like honey from the page.
Sweet nothings,
are everything.
Gorgeous mind,
beautiful heart.
Lonely boy,
for you I seek.
Gentle lover,
your warm caress.
Love notes,
books overflow.
Vanilla kisses,
morning greetings.
Hands embrace,
cupping my soul.
Eyes mystifying,
fogging my mind.
Lost in your world,
my lover and I.


Blood Lust

I catch that look from across the room,
I know what you crave.
A sly smile,
the flick of your head.
What a strange creature you are,
driven by lust and desire.
Fire in your fingertips,
trailing down my neck.
Lips brushing on my cheek,
your appetite for only me.
Passionate embraces,
forbidden touch.
Hands exploring,
my body your land.
Together as one,
my vampire and me.


Hellfire Love

So lonely,
but you're still here.
So cold,
and the beds still warm.
Seeking you,
falling through the dark.
Grabbing emptiness,
drowning in the memories of you.
Holding on,
hoping that you hear me call.
Knowing fully,
they will never let you go.
Departing early,
sins not repented oh Father.
Fire goddess,
ripping at your heart.
All the evil you did,
but my savior you were.
Deaths lusting,
need the fire to melt my soul.


All of Me

I can be your worst nightmare or your best dream.
Love you or leave you,
but I will make you scream.
I am the high that you seek.
I am the angel who will make you weak.
The fire burning in your head,
I am the lust lying in your bed.
Waiting for a thousand years,
I am the one who will wipe away the tears.
I am the hell you bear,
the pain on your sleeve you wear.
I am the lingering thought,
the drug that you just bought.
Playing nice isn't my game,
all your life you will call my name.
One taste and you will see,
I am the one who will set you free.


Animals We Are

Empty inside
Lonely and cold
Seems like forever since you were in my arms
Dead and gone
Love broken by the wayside
Touch
Shattering
Coming out of the shell
New suit
A new me
Embrace hot
Eyes of flame
Passions fuel
Lust rages
Caressing you
Burning
Lips blistery
Skin peeling back
Animalistic desires
Tasting you
Inside me
Deep
A new suit
You


Passions of the Condemned

I see you there in the shadows of sin
Sent for a passion that cannot be forgiven
Committed for the purest crime of heart
Life the greatest token,
crushed in her bony fingers.
We both fell for a lie of love
Our eyes burned,
our souls scorched
Hearts torched
I feel your thoughts as I approach
Our doom - fate arousing
Shrouds of Hell seductive
A haze escaping as I whisper "you're mine"
Lips aflame as we kiss
Bodies erupt ascending fingers
Shredding our death robes
The atmosphere flaring around us
Your heat searing inside me
Our sentence an eternity of fiery ecstasy


*****

Death


Poetry in this section deals with death and dying; my one great fear.

“Death is a very dull, dreary affair, and my advice to you is to have nothing whatsoever to do with it.”
W. Somerset Maugham


Dying Time

The time has come.
The time is clear.
The time for change, now is here.
We're born to die,
and die we must.
We die to live,
we die to lust.
We're born to make a mark,
they mark our grave.
We die to be free, we die to save.
Those who condemn and those who slave.
Who slave for the wicked,
the wicked that we live.
We're born to die and die to live.


Why?

Why do they hate me?
Why do I get abused?
The person they want me to be is leading my life, killing me.
Now I'm gone,
they're too late.
They say sorry.
Sorry for your grief,
it shouldn't be me.


No

No friends.
No fame,
only you in my life.
No money.
No truth.
No ways to survive, hate my life.
Need to hate the truth, instead hate you.
No family.
No way, only my death today.


High

High on life,
high on you.
My mind is blown on the way to show the truth.
Bottle in my hand,
needle in my vein.
Gun in my mouth,
hear me out.
Hate you.
Want you,
death the only way out.
Don't stop to think.
Have a good feeling now.


Blood in My Mouth

Blood in my mouth,
hate you no doubt.
Drugs the only way,
hate me today.
Knife at my side,
will my troubles go away?
No life.
No way.
Hate you today.
Die right now, choke on the blood in my mouth


Death is Cold

Death is the way,
take it today.
Life at stake.
Bottle at hand.
Time takes its toll.
Death is cold.
Hate myself,
no way out!


Looking Up the Barrel

Barrel in my mouth,
high up with 'cain.
Sex to you.
Death your way.
Bottle on the floor,
needle in my vein.
Match in my pocket,
weed on what's left of my brain.
Dreams of you.
Wish this way.
Need the feeling,
want the pain.
Need your touch.
Thinking straight now.
Barrel in my mouth,
finger in the right spot.
Pull it down.
Love you,
hate my mind.


The Beast

My loveless soul has died,
from the pain I keep inside.
No love for you while you were in my life.
No time to rest my shadowed eyes.
The broken scars on my back begin to bleed.
The beast took over my mind.
Torn memories begin to tear right through me.
My time to laugh has struck 12.
What life has died?
The beast is scared for fire burns the lies.
We children scarred are burn with tears,
sleepless nights of buried fears.
Hide the scars of the beaten years.
Is it dead or is it me?


Death is Real

My life is gone,
the end is soon.
Hate my way,
no love for you.
Pretend friends,
only death is real.
Hate my way,
no life for you.
Bed of lies,
cover up the truth.
No life for me,
no hate for you.


Dive Into the Abyss

I can see the deep end from where I stand
Don't hold back see where I land
Falling through the black
Forever gone, the world at my back
Can’t be at ease
Mind never at peace
Falling into the black
You can never go back


Leaving Forever

I can't save you, if you won’t let me in.
Can't save you from yourself, can't wash away the sin.
Take my hand, we'll go together.
Never look back, leave forever.


*****


Nature and the Natural


A small section with a few poems about nature and all it touches.

“Come forth into the light of things, let nature be your teacher.”
William Wordsworth



Night

The stars are brightly glowing,
as the moon is silvery shinning.
The dew is gleaning on every piece of grass.
The birds are silently sleeping.
The water is slowly flowing,
as the dreams are pouring in all the children's heads.
All the flowers grow in the pale moon light,
the wind whispers stirring in the night and flows over the land.


The Wolf

It lurks at night,
screams piercing the dark.
It howls at the moon,
it lies by a grave.
This animal will make you its slave.
Watch out little children, be aware.
You're in for a bigger scare.
Watch out little children, don't go out after dark.
This dog has more than a big bad bark.


*****

Dedications


These poems are written for, dedicated to, and inspired by the people in my life


Poem for My Baby Boy, Wyatt

Big blue eyes and tiny toes.
Red hair and Daddy's nose.
Dimpled chin and smile so bright,
your little hand we hold so tight.
We have so many dreams for you,
only time can tell what you will do.
Enjoy the time while you can,
soon our 'baby boy' will be a man.
Into this world you will go
Take these words so you will know,
that this fact is very true
"Mommy and Daddy will always love you!"


Mom

Vibrant woman, full of life
Mother daughter, rifts and strife
Bruised ego, teenage fight
Push and pull, family right
Love and honor, mothers hold
Cherished hug, heart of gold


Fire Goddess of the Dead

Fire goddess hair of read,
ruler of the living dead.
Cold porcelain skin,
peddling bottles of her sin.
Siren of the fallen land,
'come to me take my hand.'
Hypnotic body of ink,
take my wine and we shall drink.
Bodies covering the ground,
undead lovers forever bound.
Do her bidding,
racking up the body count.
Fire goddess unleash dead,
they have a hunger longing to be fed.
Throne of headstones,
crown of human bones.
Stand before the army of the dead,
in your honor blood will be shed.

This poem was written for Keli Terrell @KopheliaQ for her donation to Deader Days.


Chameleon

My love for you is ever-changing,
like a chameleon changing shade.
No matter what you become,
that love will never fade.
I would tell you that I hate you,
that this time has been a lie.
Those words would be so untrue;
I cannot live without you in my life.
The moment that I met you,
I fell deeply in love.
You were the answers to my prayer,
an answer from above.


About the Author

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April Denton started writing poetry as a young teenager to express the strong emotions teens struggle with daily. Poetry has always been her biggest outlet and she hopes to one day be published poet.

April resides in Evansville, Indiana with her husband, son, and feisty feline. In her spare time she likes to write on her blog, listen to heavy metal, and do crafts.


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