A Life in Darkness
Elizabeth Agiantritis
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Copyright 2009 Elizabeth Agiantritis
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Deliverance
Deliver me from everything I have ever hated.
Let me see the light of another world.
Break the chains that bond me to life.
Send me freedom.
Untitled
Loneliness is the door
to darkness.
Eternal commitment
is the key.
Exit, none.
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Gasping for air
Trying to escape their destiny
Wishing for life
And finding only the darkness and emptiness of death.
The Hidden Meaning of Death
Depression sets in
And darkness is before me.
Light a faded memory
Hope a forgotten melody
Suicide a key.
Life's Path
I walked down the path of life
And noticed
Along the way
That death is there
Everyday.
I dreamed of peace
And I found war.
I wished for life
And I stopped breathing.
Hope that drifted by
An everlasting kingdom,
The hate that never died.
The bitterness of loneliness,
The hope that now has gone.
Forgiveness seems so far away
And peace, but a fools dream.
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Knowing that life
Will come to an end,
Knowing that death
Will come,
I cry.
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I wish no one had to die,
So I would not have to cry.
Selfish though I may be,
Death I cannot bear to see.
Beneath my every smile
There is always a tear.
Now I am what I never was
Once I was an Angel
Once I was a Prince
Once I was cherished the colour white.
Now I am a demon
Now I am a thief
Now I cherish the colour black.
Tomorrow's Tortured Child
Tomorrow's tortured child
Will live in a haze
Covered by a mist of hate.
Tomorrow's tortured child
Will have no faith.
Tomorrow's tortured child
Will have no hope.
Tomorrow's tortured child
Will have no life.
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Hate is all around me,
But love is nowhere to be seen.
When people come near me
The smile on their faces disappears.
I am only a person like them,
I am not different,
Why am I treated so badly,
I do not know.
So that question I shall ask forever.
Raged Feelings
I live in a town
With many people,
Yet I see no one.
Thousands of voice
Surround me everyday,
Yet there is silence.
I reach out
To touch someone's hand,
Yet all I touch is ice.
I look carefully at people's faces
I notice evil grins
I hear evil laughter.
The darkness of evil doesn't let me see
And the light of goodness is blinding me.
There's a Hell
And there's a Heaven
But all I can feel is fire.
I want to be free
From the chains of wickedness
I want to be free, like a bird
But like a bird I may get shot down.
My blood one day
Shall slowly drip
And when my skin rots
My bones will be thrown in a wall
Then I will be no one.
The past has gone
The future has not come yet
And the present is here.
Death is the final boarder of life
I will reach it one day.
Until then
Life shall flow within me.
Untitled
Deep beneath the ocean,
Deep beneath the sea,
Lie hidden secrets,
Darkness surrounding me.
Ships go sailing by,
People one the decks.
People smiling,
Always waiving.
I stand on tiptoes,
I call out to them,
They turn around,
They see a dolphin.
And still on tiptoes
I see the back of the ships.
And oh! So many
People waving.
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The picture painted plenty,
The room was cold and empty.
Words that were unspoken,
Nothing but a token,
For the bitterness before us
Was the worst we had ever witnessed,
And the space between Heaven and Hell
Was clearly non-existent.
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Life, forget me not
When death comes for me.
And hope, desert me not
When the Ferryman comes sailing along.
And love, let me be,
For when it is time
I want to be free.
The Land of the Bare Trees
Oh, yes,
I do so clearly remember
It was winter, of the month December,
A sight not easily forgotten,
The sense of hopelessness still burns within.
It was in the leaves' nature,
They had no other choice.
So they abandoned their position
And fell to the ground.
The emptiness before me
Scarred me ever so deeply,
And the grey-coloured sky
Provoked fear within me.
I walked away slowly-
For my feet could hardly support me-
Never to look back again.
But the memory still haunts me
And I shall forever wake in the night
Remembering that so dark sight.
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Oh, sadness
How I worship your footsteps.
Oh, sadness,
How I welcome your presence.
Oh, sadness,
How I let you take over, me,
And all the ones I love.
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He shall never see the light
He shall never feel the warmth
He shall never say another word.
He is sworn to secrecy
For the secret is very important
It is the secret of life and death.
Can he see?
I wonder.
Can he speak?
I wonder.
Can he hear?
I wonder.
Can he feel?
I wonder.
Does anything matter to him anymore?
I wonder.
But once I wondered no more
For he woke up and with him the secret awoke.
He said:
Every time we call his name
He wakes up only to die once more
And every flower we lay on his grave
Awakens him only to die once more
He never rests in peace.
Afterwards he left and never came back again
Because he fell back to sleep.
He fell into the deepest sleep
And shall never wake again
For he is all the dead.
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I searched everywhere
For the one thing I could not find,
I searched everywhere
For my peace of mind.
I searched high
And I searched low,
I searched everywhere I know.
I gazed up
And I gazed down,
I turned my head
Round and round.
I looked and wondered,
I looked and peered
At the one thing that I feared,
DEATH!
Choices Wrong
Is it not greed
That leads me
To choose silver
Over happiness
And gold
Over life?
Is it not greed
That leads me
To love and cherish
All that sparkles
And care not
For all that lives?
Is it not greed
That leads me
To sacrifice or take another man's life
So I can hold in my hand a single piece of gold?
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My sanity leaves me
And I can no longer see
All there is to see.
My sanity leaves me
And I have no hope
Of it ever returning.
My sanity leaves me
And I know
That my end is soon to come.
Untitled
For that which comes from the sky
I thank the Lord.
For that which come from the land
I thank Mother Nature.
For that which I have accomplished
I thank only myself.
Untitled
I regret the things I did,
I regret the things I said,
I regret the things I saw,
I regret the things I heard.
I regret the dark cloud, up above
For I know I helped create it
With all the things
I did, said, saw and heard.
Untitled
Death is that wonderful place
Where pain and suffering end
And death is also
That disastrous place
Where happiness and laughter
Also end.
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When I close my eyes
All I that I can see
Is the bitterness
That lays within me.
When I close my eyes
All I can see
Is the God that ignores me.
When I close my eyes
All that I can see
Is the inside of my eyelids.
Monsters, Demons, Ghosts
In the darkness I see
Monsters, demons, ghosts;
All that haunt me,
But with the first
Hint of light
They all disappear from sight,
But make no mistake,
They are still there,
Waiting for the sun to set.
Untitled
Words are for the living,
Prayers are for the living,
Hope is for the living,
Peace is for the dead.
Untitled
Hope is my only enemy
And despair my only friend.
Life is not for me
Dead I long to be.
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Though the pain of knowledge
Rips at my heart,
I go on.
Though memories
Meet me at every corner,
I go on.
Though the pain
Allows me not to breath,
I go on.
For I can no longer remember
How not to go on.
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The weight of the world
Lays heavy on my shoulders.
The truth of knowledge
Pierces my heart.
The pain of what is
Is too much to bear,
So I simply don't.
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If I could
I would fly away.
If I could
I would die today.
I would forget
All of my sorrows,
I would forget
All my pain
And gladly enter
Death's forever domain.
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Looking for a haven
I found only death.
Hoping for a better tomorrow
I only danced to the beat of hopelessness,
And realising my failure
I felt only pain.
The Monster of the Dark
The sun is shining
And it is morning time.
But the darkness remains,
It is there.
There in my heart,
And in my mind there.
Like the yesterday that wont leave,
Like the bitterness that remains,
Like a monster that devours the light.
I can't breathe and I am suffocating,
I can't breathe and I am slowly dying.
All that ask for
Is to see even one ray of light
That is not shadowed by the monster of the dark.
Man and Death
Your immortal soul
Constantly torments me.
Your ruthless heart
Constantly pains me.
In my sleep
And in my waking hours,
You are always there.
My dreams and my hopes
You destroy in an instant.
I ask only for light
But you give me darkness.
I am only
A weak mortal
But you are powerful.
I am a man
And you are death.
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Pained heart
And tearful eyes.
A soul that bleeds
And the every tomorrow
That does not come.
How to you live knowing?
How can you continue
When you don't even know
If you will see the sun shining
In the morning.
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A miracle happened
And after years
Spent in darkness
I was able to see.
I looked at the world,
I looked at it well,
And it was so ugly
That I renounced the miracle
And preferred to be blinded again
Taking out my eyes with my own hands.
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Lurking in the darkness
Of a bitter cold night
I hunger for a taste of life.
I cower in the shadows
And press my body close to the walls.
I shy away from human contact
And avert my gaze.
I lust for the forbidden,
I burn with the fever of need.
In silence I scream in agony
Pleas that can not be heard.
Look not at me,
You will not see me.
Look not for me,
You will not find me.
In darkness I dwell,
In darkness I am all that I can be.
Darkness is what I have chosen
And darkness has chosen me.
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Black clouds above
Heralding a new age
Of chaos and destruction.
Dark seas swell
With the boiling anger
Of a million tortured souls.
Ominous signs appear
To speak of the destiny of man.
Look not far,
Look in the mirror only
And all will be revealed.