Stabbed In The Back
Copyright 2011 by Silver Dragon Publishing
Smashwords Edition
It
Begins
Now
Our
time
is
now,
sit
back
and
read
as
your
about
to
witness
only
chapter
one.
The
book
begins
now
as
it
turns
open
in
front
of
you
to
a
chapter
that
was
forgot
by
the
masses.
But
now
unleashed
as
it
was
a
nursery
rhyme
that
was
read
to
you
as
a
child.
The
time
of
the
new
era
is
upon
us.
This
shall
forever
be
seen
as
what
we
will
always
be
known
as….
The
Forgotten
Souls
Are
here
Be
Warned
You
are
about
to
have
our
name
burned
into
your
brain.
As
the
suffering
that
you
caused,
shall
allow
us
to
distribute
the
pain.
Forever
as
the
world
has
forgotten.
Now
as
the
worlds
shall
collide..
You
are
about
to
witness
the
path
of
THE
FORGOTTEN
SOULS
Scars
Of
My
Life
With
everythin
that
happens
to
me
that
causes
pain.
My
blood
itches
for
it
to
drip
like
rain.
As
I
slice
my
skin
on
my
wrist.
I've
always
liked
watching
the
blood
start
to
piss.
All
I've
ever
wanted
was
a
reason
to
let
the
knife
slide.
To
follow
the
knife
on
it's
own
ride.
Watch
it's
path
start
to
fill
with
red.
When
I
stop
I'll
finally
be
dead.
Flying
high
in
the
sky.
My
life
flashes
as
I
begin
to
die.
Blood
flowing
free.
Cause
I'm
dying
to
be.
Anything
but
who
I
am.
Hey
somebody
has
a
cam.
Guess
I'll
have
my
15 minutes
of
fame.
Cause
after
that
my
story
will
be
lame.
Drips
of
blood
down
below.
People
passing
by
saying
hello.
I'm
dying
up
here.
But
I
have
no
fear.
Cause
today
is
my
end.
My
knife
was
my
friend.
- The Forgotten Souls -
I Hate You
I hate you mum and I hate you dad
I hate the world ‘cause I’m treated so bad
I hate my life the way it is
But that’s okay ‘cause it’s just my biz
My business, my life, my world of hate
Slicing my wrists is my ultimate fate
I hate you Keith and I hate you Jim
Together you made my life more dim
I hate you Sarah and I hate you Tom
You both make me want to set off a bomb
I hate you all
‘Cause it’s the world laughing when I fall
Angel
€
My Story
My story started years ago
The day that SHE had to go
SHE was perfect, SHE was kind
To all SHE was a rare find
I’m no good, no good at all
I’m the child certain to fall
Born nothing but bad
I’m the child I bet my parents wished they hadn’t had
Teased and tormented as years began to pass
I was left sitting alone on my ass
Death was my friend, my one and only
Yet here I sit, nothing but lonely
My story is pathetic, this I know
Guess it’s time that I should go
Time to end my pathetic life
Time to head to the kitchen for the knife
Blood beginning to pool on the floor
I smile and fade out as I watch it pool more
Into my faded bliss I go
Hope they know it was all just a show
Pathetic am I
My life’s a lie
So here it ends, my life as I know it
I won’t be missed, not one single bit
Blood runs as I laugh and smile
Soon my life will be nothing but a file
My story ends here
I leave with no fear
For
now
is
my
time
to
die.
Angel
€
Trying To Be Free
My hear is black
My life’s off track
My soul’s lost
But it can be yours for a cost
I’m pathetic an’ dumb
One day I’ll become a bum
Nobody wants me in their life
Guess I’ll go find me a dirty knife
I’m too bad for a clean blade
Perhaps I’ll find a sharp piece of jade
Walking down this lonely path
Find an animal to feel my rath
Laugh an’ smile for I’m no good
As KJ hides behind his dark hood
A lost soul like me
KJ too longs to be free
Two people full of hate
Two people soon to go irate
Blood begins to run
Now starts my fun
My wrists are open
No point in mopin
Around over stupid lil me
Can’t you see I’m trying to be free?
Angel
€
Getting Noticed
Here you stand all nice an’ hot
While in the back’s the one who’s forgot
Silently I sit an’ watch your joy
Glad to see you’ve found your boy
Never will I find such good luck
I know you’re thinking “Angel, you suck”
My life’s alone till the day I die
An’ all because my life’s a lie
Too bad for me
Soon you’ll see
The knife that’s hiding in my hand
Soon to me, my life will be grand
A slice here, a slice there
It’s not like you would ever care
Blood dripping on the floor
Me laughing, wanting more
Slowly I fall, too much blood gone
All you can do is think I’m wrong
This is my fate, to die like this
Never to love, never to kiss
Things are quiet an’ bright
Dying inside, I see the light
Life is gone and I am dead
Now it’s time to go to bed
Do not worry, I’ll not be missed
But mother sure will be pissed
Upon her floor I did bleed
But I succeeded in my happy deed
‘Cause today it’s me who will get noticed
Angel
€
Coming For You
Find me a knife, find me a gun
Now is the time to have some fun
On the ground you shall lay
An’ my demands you shall obey
To me you’re nothing but a toy
Killing you will bring my joy
Bang bang, now you’re dead
Lucky me, I shot you in the head
Look at the blood flowing free
Look at the others running away from me
Two more shots, how you’re down
This is a circus an’ I’m the head clown
Run for your life, but I’ll hunt for you
I won’t stop till there’s blood on you
Someone’s not looking, there’s a stab from my knife
I’m having fun taking your life
So much blood all around
So many bodies on the ground
Only one left for me to take
An’ end this life of mine that’s fake
A shoot to my head
Good, Now I’m dead.
Angel
€
Fun On The Run
Crystal’s dead
I shot her in the head
Angel € is here
An’ everybody’s in fear
I am not sane
An’ I don’t want fame
I’m here to write
An’ here to fight
I hate the world cause it hates me
All I want is to be set free
I want to go on a killing spree
An’ watch those fuckers try to flee
I’d hunt ‘’em down and make ‘em pay
Then laugh as in the pool of blood they’d lay
I’d make ‘em pay, every last one
So that I could have my wicked fun
Kill them all
An’ have a ball
Till it became my turn to die
Tick tock, tick tock, Bye-bye
Angel
€
Something New
A shiny thing for me to see
Death will come after me
That knife just sitting there
Across the room I look and stare
Something new for me to try
Watching as you sit an’ cry
Across my face comes a smile
Stay with me just a while
I won’t hurt you, not just yet
But it will come, that’s a sure bet
Knife in hand I come to you
Make you pay for all you do
Slice your throat, watch you bleed
This is what I’ll always need
Watching blood on the floor
Sitting, watching, wanting more
Slowly leaving, watching you die
Having you wonder “why me, why?”
Laughing, smiling, on the go
Got rid of one more fuckin ho
Love the feeling, I want more
Time to find another open door
Took your locket so I’d have pride
Death beside me on the ride
Time to go home, it’s getting light
No more bitches tryin to fight
There they lie on the floor
Watching as I walk out the door
My killing’s done for now
But I’ll be back, somehow
Angel
€
Failure
I’m a failure, yes I know
Wish I had a place to go
Accomplished nothing as of yet
Nothing in life is good I bet
No place to run an’ hide
Nobody in which I can confide
Pen on paper, as a rule
Is my only creative tool
I am not good in any way
Least it is a sunny day
Beautiful day for me to fail
I’ll curl up later an’ start to wail
Tears will fall, that much is true
My life’s miserable, that’s why I’m blue
I’d kill myself but I’d probably fail at that too
So here I sit writing to you
Letting you know that I’m done
I hate my life, I have no fun
I’m a failure, yes I know
Still wish I had a place to go
No home, no life
No clean sharp knife
To be found
But here I lay on the ground
Failure for life, that is me
One day that’s what you’ll see.
Angel
€
Angel €
Here’s the ugly girl that nobody likes
Done up with make up an’ a collar of spikes
The one who wants to get a tat
Who sees nothing but fat
When in the mirror she looks
Wanting to stop the funny looks
Angel € is her name
Writing for fun not fame
She’s down real low
Wants to give her head a blow
Looks at her wrists an’ sees the blood
Wishing like a river, it would flood
Death is what she wants to come
So she’ll no longer be a bum
Here’s the ugly girl that nobody likes
Done up with make up an’ a collar of spikes
The one who wants to get a tat
Who sees nothing but fat
When in the mirror she looks
Wanting to stop the funny looks
Angel € is her name
To everybody her life is a game
She hates to world, hates it all
Knowing in the end she’s gonna fall
She wants only to die
An’ stop living a lie
That “she” is me,
I’m Angel €
Angel
€
Prepare
To
Die
It's
now
your
turn
to
die
so
prepare
yourself
to
be
buried.
You
wanted
to
walk
around
flontin
how
easy
you
had
it
which
made
your
death
be
huried.
This
is
how
it'll
be
done;
I'll
smack
you
upside
your
head
with
a
bat.
Without
warning
I'll
do
it,
as
quick
as
that.
Before
your
brain
could
register
a
blow
to
the
skull
protectin
it
you'll
get
a
second
blow.
This
one
will
send
you
to
the
ground
in
a
bloody
heap.
If
I
let
you
live
you'll
be
just
like
the
ones
you
call
freak.
Brain
damaged
to
the
fullest
as
it
poors
out
your
ear.
Your
eyes
plucked
out
of
your
skull
just
so
all
you
can
see
is
darkness.
But
we'll
leave
your
ears
in
tact
so
that
you
can
hear
all
the
screams
so
you
know
how
it
feels.
To
be
different
is
how
your
going
to
be
when
we
get
done
with
you.
When
you
walk
into
the
shadows
of
night,
it's
over
for
you.
When
you
walk
into
the
shadows
of
night,
it's
over
for
you.
When
you
walk
into
the
shadows
of
night,
it's
over
for
you.
Prepare
To
Die.
Now's
a
good
time
for
you
to
prepare
for
death.
It's
time
to
see
what
all
is
left.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
It
Was
At
Midnight.
It
Was
At
Midnight
that
my
last
victim
lost
his
head.
I
acted
all
friendly
just
so
I
could
get
her
into
the
shed.
While
she
was
talking
about
what
was
going
on
in
her
life.
I
knew
that
I
had
enough
specially
when
I
reached
for
the
knife.
As
she
turned
her
back
to
me
I
knew
it
was
the
perfect
time
to
do
it.
The
knife
quickly
went
across
her
throat
and
she
dropped
to
the
floor
like
a
ton
of
shit.
Her
bloody
carcus
continue
to
squirt
blood,
as
I
rubbed
some
of
it
on
my
face.
War
blood
is
what
it
was,
since
when
she
died
it
was
just
a
disgrace.
That
she
head
to
fall
so
quickly
and
being
so
pretty.
Bringing
the
world
to
an
end
as
quickly
as
her
shirt
said
hello
kitty.
It
was
at
midnight
when
I
pulled
it
off.
Her
beautiful
body
fell
when
she
decided
to
call
it
off.
She
told
me
It
wasn't
ment
to
be.
But
yet
she
still
tried
to
confide
in
me.
When
it
crossed
my
mind
I
realized
that
no
one
else
must
have
her.
So
now
she
lives
inside
of
my
mind
as
a
blur.
The
madness
of
the
moon
lit
up
the
ground
in
which
I
buried
her
deep.
Her
final
resting
place
for
her
body
to
sleep.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
Bury
The
Bitch
Talk
shit
and
you'll
have
blood
strains
on
your
dress.
When
I
get
through
with
you
you'll
be
a
mess.
Let
me
let
your
blood
flow
from
your
neck.
To
decapitate
your
head
clean
off
so
I
have
something
to
remember
you
with.
I
wear
the
hannibal
lector
mask
as
I
fuck
around
with
the
ouija
board.
Tryin
to
see
whos
sacrifice
can
come
up
with
the
high
score.
I
still
leave
bitches
in
three
foot
graves.
After
I
get
rid
of'em
from
wantin
to
give
up
bein
my
sex
slaves.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
The
Devil
Seed
Doing
the
work
of
the
devil
murderin
and
slaughterin
who
he
asks.
Slittin
my
own
wrist
to
fill
up
a
flask.
Offerin
it
to
him
to
find
out
what
else
he
wants
done.
He
keeps
me
alive
seein
that
I
am
much
fun.
Doing
his
dirty
work
as
if
he
was
here
on
earth.
He'll
reward
me
in
the
after
life
as
I'll
sit
beside
him
on
the
throne.
While
we
chill
an
have
a
flesh
an
bloody
cone.
Prepare
yourself
as
you
could
be
on
the
list.
I'm
a
dead
on
hit,
I
know
I
won't
miss.
- KJ Abyzz -
BOOK OF DEATH
This book is a collaboration of work written by the following people:
Angel €, KJ Abyzz, Mr. Love Zone, and newcomer Mistress of Seduction.
The
book
is
released
through
Silver
Dragon
Publishing.
(http://www.silverdragonpublishing.vze.com)
NOTE:
All writing is fictional and should not be taken seriously. It is purely the warped minds of those listed above writing for their own amusement, and those of you who enjoy this sort of thing. If you are at all offended by the material within this book, too fuckin bad… You should have figured out by the title what the contents would be like.
When I’m Dead
Until the noose cuts off my circulation
My love for you is my motivation
Forever shall be what gets me up in the morning
Till the day I found my darling
Hung in the closet, with a note on her chest reading
“My love will forever live with my eternal bleeding”
I knew then she was always in pain
Yet she always lived her life the same
As any other till that very day
Is when I will always remember what to say
When she told me “When I’m Dead”
Nothing clicked inside my head
Now I regret every moment
That I never asked “what’s wrong”
As I always thought it was the “same song”
The feeling that she would never belong
Nothing made sense any more
My hurt began to poor
Into a pool that seemed to continue to flow
My heart’s contents never to go
In my heart he’ll always stay
Though dead, my body will lay
He’s my one and only
I only wish I weren’t so lonely
Now my words are read
And in his heart I’m never dead.
Mr. Love Zone & Mistress of Seduction
Skank Set Free
From a distance she looked clean
Up close her flesh looks lean
Another want to be
Maybe I should strip her to the skin to see
See her breasts so tight and small
Watch as she tries to flaunt ‘em at the mall
No one wants to see what you ain’t got
Look at that one, hers are bought
See that black eye, that means she fought
Oh look one with a short skirt
When she walks I see the dirt
But yet she always thinks she’s a flirt
See my body, see my chest
They’re real and what’s best
I got ‘em yet I don’t dress like you
Least I got a man that’s true
Yes they are what is best
Take ya shirt off to show her ya breasts
Somethin no one else can have – them to touch
Since they’re all mine and I love ‘em just so much
Lil skank run away
MLZ made my day
Rub your cock with my hand
I see your want, come lead the band.
Mr. Love Zone & Mistress of Seduction
Victims, I look 4 More
Feel like havin me some fame
Feel like endin a life so lame
Feel like bashin in your head
Feel like a tramp in the bed
Pullin me this way, pushin me that way
Guess it’s time for me to say
Shut up bitch, not today
I’ve had enough of what you say
Smack this bitch with my hand
An on the ground is where she’ll land
Beat her bloody till she’s dead
Then shoot her man in the head
Kill the pair in the house
An exit quickly, like a mouse
No cops will find me, not a single one
So I’ll continue to have my fun
Swipe their shit and now I’m gone
Yeah, Ok, I know it’s wrong
But tonight’s my night to have some fun
Not for long I’m on the run
Buy me a gun so I can kill
Don’t think I’ll ever have my fill
Blood and guts, I want more
Time to find me another whore.
Angel €
Perfect Crime
Watching as the rain comes down
Knowing you’re bleeding on the ground
This is how it needs to be
The rain is here to set me free
Your blood flowing down the path
Smiling as I start to laugh
Blood washing slowly away
Now’s the time to get away
Leaving you to die alone in the rain
I feel I have everything to gain
No marks on you did I leave
Just a knife wound I believe
Maybe a kick or two
But the only one who deserved it was you
For making my life hell
The world I’ll tell
The perfect crime for the perfect bitch
Always acting like a lil witch
Planning, secrets, not a soul to know
How I ended it all with a single blow
Rain covering up my tracks
Time now for me to relax
Dying there on the ground
My freedom I’ve just found.
Angel €
Here’s To You
Here’s to you
Lil baby blue
Dead at first
Maybe you’re cursed
Nobody wanted you anyway
That’s why you didn’t stay
Pregnant no more
Beaten to the core
Lil baby blue
Here’s to you
Rattles an toys galore
Too bad you were a bore
Dead an gone away
That’s how you’re gonna stay
No need for you now
No questions of how
You went away that dark rainy day
But in the end there was a ray
Of light ‘cause you were dead
An now I lay in bed
So lil baby blue
Here’s to you.
Angel €
Running Scared
Kiddies, kiddies, on the run
They must be scared of my gun
Why I can’t quite figure out
All they do is scream an shout
Running here an running there
Kiddies, kiddies, everywhere
Parents screaming for their child
Everybody running wild
Happy, laughing with every step I take
Knowing that their fears aren’t fake
They’re scared of me
An what they’ll see
Bang, bang, now he’s dead
I shot him in the fucking head
Kids lyin on the ground
Waiting there to be found
Time to go I hear the cops
Just a few more pop
Time to run to the car
Good job I didn’t park far
This was fun
But it’s time to run
My work here is done.
Angel €
Suicide Cover
There you are in the chair
Pleading, crying, hoping someone would care
“Your time’s up old man”
Whack, hit you with a frying pan
Silence now, I shut you up
Slip a little poison in your cup
Typing a note for the cops to find
Telling how the world you’ve left behind
Slowly you wake up
My demand, “Drink half that cup”
Questions as you again start to cry
“I don’t understand” you start, “Why?”
“Drink it now or you’ll die”
Knowing that it was a lie
Pulling out my shiny knife
I told him how I’d slice his wife
The cup he drank to spare her life
Little did he know, I already killed his wife
Choking, spitting, up came blood
Soon the desk looked like a flood
Dying there, a suicide cover
He did everything to save his lover
An old couple dead in their house
Quickly, quietly, like a mouse
I scurried out
All I heard was a very faint shout
This story’s done
I’ve had my fun
I am free
That’s how it’s meant to be.
Angel €
Statue Of Death
Beneath the statue of death I stand
Partner in crime holding my hand
Blades move in the air
Gracefully moving from here to there
Blood slowly starting to drip
Sounds of clothing starting to rip
The smell of death is all around
Soon these bodies will be found
KJ and I are on our way
Today has been an awesome day
4 bodies having above
We murdered them out of love
Statue of death here to stay
So we may murder another day.
Angel €
Locked
& Loaded
Watch
as
I
walk
into
your
school.
Everyone
else
is
doing
it,
so
it’s
time
for
me
to
be
cool.
Black
trench
coat
and
weapons
from
head
to
toe.
This
is
for
all
those
who
claim
that
I
am
slow.
You
all
had
it
coming
as
you
continue
to
push
me
and
assault
me
with
your
words.
Now
run
for
your
fucking
life
as
I
start
to
aim
towards.
Your
chest,
I
want
to
see
the
blood
splatter
all
over
the
wall.
I
want
to
see
a
pool
of
blood
when
you
fall.
What
was
started
could
never
be
undone.
Since
your
all
in
my
game
of
fun.
None
of
you
did
a
fucking
thing
to
stop
them.
Nobody
not
one
person,
not
her
and
definitely
not
him.
That’s
why
I’m
targeting
everybody
from
here
on
out.
I
want
to
hear
your
screams,
I
want
your
blood
on
my
hands,
I
want
to
hear
you
shout.
That
is
what
I’m
craving
that
is
what
I
want.
Shut
your
fucking
mouth
you
stupid
ass
cunt.
I
never
liked
you
at
all,
but
you
claimed
you
wanted
me.
Now
you
see
that
you’re
a
top
of
my
list
with
your
friends,
one,
two,
three.
Shots
I
let
out
of
my
gun.
Three
little
pain
in
the
fucking
ass
bitches
that
I
have
eliminated
in
my
dose
of
fun.
I
shall
no
longer
fear.
The
words
that
came
from
anyone
of
you
queers.
From
this
point
on,
forever
and
till
the
end.
I
Shall
be
back
each
day,
till
the
time
that
you
are
no
longer
in
my
head.
KJ
Abyzz
Mind
Full
Of
Hate
My
minds
full
of
hate.
Your
about
to
meet
your
fate.
Rather
it
be
a
knife
to
the
throat.
Slide
it
across
real
easy,
that'd
be
all
she
wrote.
Shootin
up
ones
school
as
I
see
in
the
media.
Eric
wantin
to
take
his
revenge
outside
to
say
see
ya.
Shootin
up
the
ones
you
dislike.
Even
takin
aim
at
the
kid
on
the
bike.
You
won't
see
me,
I
be
hidin
my
face
behind
a
mask.
No
tellin
what
type
so
don't
even
ask.
No
trustin
me,
I'm
shady
yo.
Thought
you
knew
me
but
you
didn't
though.
My
minds
full
of
hate.
Your
about
to
meet
your
fate.
Rather
it
be
a
knife
to
the
throat.
Slide
it
across
real
easy,
that'd
be
all
she
wrote.
Shootin
up
ones
school
as
I
see
in
the
media.
Eric
wantin
to
take
his
revenge
outside
to
say
see
ya.
Listen
to
the
sound
of
the
gun
shots.
Takin
out
innocent
victims
like
jaws
drop.
Not
havin
to
worry
when
ya
run
off
screamin.
Listen
to
those
terrible
thoughts
that
not
only
I
be
dreamin.
Jeff
be
takin
out
people
at
random.
Cause
they
verbally
slammed'em.
Never
knowin
what
life'll
throw
at
you.
One
day
you
could
be
live
an
well,
next
be
cold
an
blue.
My
minds
full
of
hate.
Your
about
to
meet
your
fate.
Rather
it
be
a
knife
to
the
throat.
Slide
it
across
real
easy,
that'd
be
all
she
wrote.
Shootin
up
ones
school
as
I
see
in
the
media.
Eric
wantin
to
take
his
revenge
outside
to
say
see
ya.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
The Stalking
Watching you in the rain
Stocking, praying on the vain
Waiting for a time to kill
Wanting more than my fill
Blood running down the trail
I’m certain not to fail
With my knife, I will come
Bitch you gotta stop playing dumb
Now’s the time for you to die
So on the ground you can lie
Just one more bitch in this world
Now it’s time for her family to feel sorrow
Her blood be all over my hands
The evil I have set her free from, the evil she can’t stand
Look at that lifeless body laying so still
Killin that fuckin whore was so much of a thrill
I wish I could bring her back to life
So I can murder her as my wife
From what I see in her eyes
Is the look of blood red skies
Now my task is done
Time to go I’ve had my fun
You lie so still at last
Killin you was a blast
Thanks for making a perfect day
It was fun to come out and play
Angel € & KJ Abyzz
Skank Eliminators
Two skanks in the park
Time for it to get dark
To pull a knife or two
A glorious murder just for you
Seein them skanks begin to walk away
Made me think what a glory day
As they fell victim to my evilest deeds yet
Those deeds I’ll never forget
Slice those bitches up and down
Watch as they start to drown
In their blood so warm an wet
Their torture hasn’t begun yet
The knife deep into their pussy, see the smile on their face
Alive or dead they’ll always be skanks in this case
Slide the knife up towards their breasts
I’ll let Angel € continue with what’s left
Slice an dice, it’s all the same
To me it’s just a game
Screaming, bleeding, all at once
She wouldn’t die if she weren’t a dunce
That is the life she chose to lead
So that’s why she had to bleed
To eliminate skanks of the world; never to sorrow
We shall continue to mutilate more skanks tomorrow.
Angel € & KJ Abyzz
Skank To Be
Lil girl use your eyes
Stop seeing all the lies
You’re a skank to be
Doesn’t your mother see
When you grow up you’re gonna die
‘Cause you lived your life a lie
Lil girl dressed in black
Time to get you on your back
Don’t you know how skanks get treated
They always end up getting beated
While they lay on their backs
You bet Imma stick it in your ass crack
To cause you intense pain
Until it begins to rain
I want to see your blood flow
Just as quick as how your panties go
Take my knife slice off your clothes
Gotta treat you like the other hoes
Finger your virgin pussy
Shut up bitch, don’t be a wussy
3 fingers make you scream
I thought this was your dream
You skank to be
Why didn’t you listen to me
She won’t listen cause she thought it’d get her far in life
Not beaten an raped on the wrong end of the knife
Too bad she didn’t see it coming
Maybe the next one won’t do something
To cause this to her
We’ll have to watch, just to be sure.
Angel € & KJ Abyzz
Can't Escape
I
can't
escape
that
voice.
That
drives
me
fucking
nuts.
You
haunt
my
dreams
Turning
them
into
nightmares.
Causing
me
to
stress
out.
I
can't
stand
to
hear
you
ask
me
to
do
things.
I
just
can't
escape.
It's
like
your
trying
to
kill
me
now.
I
just
can't
escape.
It's
like
your
trying
to
kill
me
now.
Your
voice
causes
me
stress.
You
don't
seem
to
see
things
in
the
same
light.
Just
listening
to
you
makes
me
want
to
wrap
a
rope
around
my
neck.
Watch
me
jump
off
the
roof
to
see
if
my
feet
will
hit
the
deck.
I
just
can't
escape.
It's
like
your
trying
to
kill
me
now.
I
just
can't
escape.
It's
like
your
trying
to
kill
me
now.
KJ Abyzz
Crossed The Line...
When
she
went
to
work
this
morning
she
was
fine.
She
didn't
have
no
marks
on
her.
She
came
home
and
had
herself
a
black
eye.
I
know
whom
done
it.
I
know
whom
pay
for
it.
I
know
who'll
be
beggin
for
mercy.
You
shall
be
my
new
toy.
When
I
get
done
with
you,
you'll
have
a
tat
of
KJ.
The
man
you
fear.
I
always
knew
you
were
a
whore.
I
always
knew
you
like
eattin
cock-splat.
I'll be sure to get joys from your screams.
KJ be the man whom haunts your dreams.
- KJ -
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Crown Of Thorns
I
stand
here
with
a
crown
of
thorns
on
my
head.
Looking
up
at
the
sky
and
down
on
the
dead.
When you look into my eyes you see nothing.
Take
a
look
at
me,
you'll
see
nothing.
I'm
the
one
who
hides
his
face
from
the
public.
When you see me out, you don't give me a chance and it makes me sick.
You mock everything about me.
You choose to be the one who thinks they're better than me.
Little do you know that you'll be below my feet in a hurry.
The skies will open up with tears.
You'll be in hell with the rest of your fears.
How long can I happen to see.
The stars above me.
Thinking they mean something to me.
- KJ Abyzz -
The
Cash
Be
Blindin
You
We
all
be
seein
what
you
don’t
want
to
admit.
Proclaimin
your
school
is
a
tight
family
till
the
day
you
quit.
Once
the
blood
is
on
your
hands
you
got
nothing
to
say.
Besides
allowing
the
media
to
make
the
choice
in
how
you
sway.
You
never
knew
it
happened
in
your
school
cause
you
never
wanted
to
see.
Kids
bein
harassed
from
9 to
just
after
3.
That
cash
be
blindin
you
to
a
better
lifestyle.
As
it
quickly
sinks
you
into
a
bigger
pile.
Awaitin
for
the
day
that
blood
is
on
your
hands
to
make
the
choice.
Should
you
finally
admit
schools
problems
or
buy
the
Rolls-Royce.
You
never
could
comprehend
the
lower
life
forms.
Your
life
is
all
fine
till
you
run
into
the
first
blood
storm.
Lookin
down
upon
the
ones
you
think
your
better
than.
Be
sure
to
keep
watchin
there
hand.
The
cash
be
blindin
you
till
the
day
the
shots
ring
out.
Shall
you
be
the
last
one
to
hear
those
shout.
The
screams
of
the
innocent
all
around
you.
Time
to
bullshit
your
story
to
the
media,
before
you
choose
red
or
blue.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
Suicide
Mission
Things
exploding
all
around
you
as
they
stand
to
do
what
they
feel
is
right.
To
take
a
stand
against
what
they
think
is
wrong,
as
they
stand
to
fight.
The
pressure
is
on
as
everyone
walks
in
fear.
Allowing
them
to
draw
more
from
the
clear.
Never
know
who,
when
or
what.
Shall
be
going
up
in
flames
an
smoke
next,
so
don’t
keep
your
eyes
shut.
No
matter
how
they
gotta
do
it
they’re
not
worried.
Up
to
that
final
second
they’re
gonna
definitely
be
hurried.
As
you
pick
and
choose
who
you
want
to
eliminate.
They
be
dropping
innocent
civilians
as
if
it’s
elimi-date.
Never
know
who’s
next
to
go.
Like
it’s
the
cast
of
a
dumb
fuckin
reality
show.
The
suicide
mission
be
all
around
you.
As
they
got
you
paranoid
to
walk
the
streets
after
two.
Be
sure
to
give
them
some
kinda
notion.
Since
it
don’t
really
matter
if
you’re
a
Richey
bitch
or
shakin
that
ass
in
motion.
The
suicide
mission
can
very
well
be
the
thing
that
consumes
you.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
Head
Trauma
- Scrapped
Take
a
good
look
deep
into
my
eyes
you
can
see
that
I’m
not
all
here.
The
darkness
of
my
eyes
are
filled
with
nothing
short
of
your
fear.
Follow
my
eyes
back
into
my
head.
The
darkness
shall
consume
as
you’ll
end
up
dead.
Never
did
get
to
see
the
light
of
day
as
I
grew
up.
More
I
went
through
the
more
I
got
fed
up.
Never
could
get
past
the
trauma
I
went
through
at
school.
Everyone
harassing
me
since
they
want
to
be
cool.
Tryin
to
be
my
friend
so
you
could
dump
more
shit
on
me
As
if
I
never
did
see
that
coming
I
was
ready
for
that
as
you
walked
on
up.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
Head
Trauma
I’m
a
cold
dark
evil
man.
Never
have
amounted
to
shit
have
yet
to
receive
any
recognition
from
a
fan.
Take
a
good
deep
look
into
my
eyes
you
can
see
that
I’m
not
all
here.
The
darkness
my
eyes
are
filled
with
is
nothing
more
than
your
fear.
People
always
trying
to
do
me
harm
no
matter
which
way
I
turn.
No
one
will
be
happy
till
they
find
my
ashes
in
a
urn.
Changing
the
face
of
poetry
is
what’s
on
my
mind.
Doin
what
it’ll
take
to
follow
my
dream
since
the
talent
I
find.
People
always
trying
to
get
inside
my
head.
They
be
givin
up
a
short
time
later
feared
they’d
wind
up
dead.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
Living
In
The
Darkness
Everyone
be
up
in
the
light
of
things.
I
be
in
the
darkness
dreamin
of
better
things.
Hopin
that
for
once
the
dreams
I
follow
will
amount.
To
something
rather
than
just
the
failed
dream
count.
Never
looking
deep
into
the
future
livin
day
by
day.
As
I
continue
to
work
a
job
I
despise
only
for
the
pay.
Wantin
to
make
bank
off
of
something
I
want
to
do.
No
one
I
know
be
standin
behind
me
with
any
dream
I
got.
So
I
continue
to
work
like
a
robot.
Not
knowing
what’s
going
on
around
me
or
in
the
office.
Shall
it
ever
happen
only
time
will
tell.
One
dream
accomplished
or
yet
another
one
that
fell.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
Shattered
Dreams
Shattering
mirrors
claim
that
it’s
bad
luck.
The
dream
I
had
last
night
made
me
scream
oh
FUCK.
I
watched
everything
fell
apart
as
I
never
thought
it
could.
One
thing
by
one
thing
it
all
dropped
outta
sight.
I
couldn’t
do
nothing
as
I
was
frozen
in
fright.
Scared
that
what
would
drop
next
and
how
it
would
affect
me.
The
next
piece
dropped
as
if
a
well
placed
puzzle
all
about
me.
I
never
did
see
it
coming,
perhaps
it’s
a
warning
of
things
to
come.
I
don’t
believe
in
dreams
foreseeing
the
future
unlike
some.
Maybe
I
should
heed
the
warning
as
many
think
I
should.
Instead
of
thinking
“Could”
I
should
be
thinking
“Would”
7
years
bad
luck
is
what
a
broken
mirror
shall
cast
upon
ones
self.
A
shattered
dream
is
enough
to
totally
wreck
one
mans
future
an
wealth
Trying
to
pick
up
the
pieces
to
see
where
he
went
wrong.
Morphing
his
own
punketry
into
what
could
be
considered
a
song.
Telling
all
bout
what
lays
upon
his
mind
as
he
writes
this.
Maybe
my
life
wasn’t
meant
to
write
it
was
to
live
in
eternal
bliss.
The
shattered
dreams
shall
always
be
part
of
a
bigger
destruction.
Just
like
my
thoughts
will
be
part
of
a
humongous
eruption.
-KJ
Abyzz
-
Heartless
Hurricane
...
Heartless
...
[News Brief]
New Orleans hurricane katrina seems to be the favorite of the news killin off thousands.
This hurricane certainly couldn't have been expected anymore than it did.
.... I lost everything
[end of News Brief]
It roared in with cold dark waves.
Turnin dead bodies into lifeless slaves.
Murderin like a mutha fucka.
It ruined lives like a school shootin sucka.
It went on out an killed people.
As everyone is runnin for cover under the highest steeple.
Follow the hurricane as you flick on the news at night.
Watch the terror as you become frozen in fright.
Wicked winds tore through the state.
Leavin people angry an irrate.
It tore through houses like a psychotic savage.
Leavin nothin for people to salvage.
Bout a few thousand people dead.
Now the lootin be trompin all over what the innocents have said.
Follow the hurricane as you flick on the news at night.
Watch the terror as you become frozen in fright.
Wicked winds tore through the state.
Leavin people angry an irrate.
......heartless ......
......heartless ......
the
horror
of
the
hurricane.
-
Kennie
Kayoz
-
DOA
You
won't
have
a
head
no
more.
You
won't
need
bread
no
more.
You'll
be
D.O.A
The
coldness
of
night.
Will
equal
your
deathly
fright.
I
may
not
be
the
grim
reaper.
But
I'll
be
your
soul
keeper.
You
won't
have
a
head
no
more.
You
won't
need
bread
no
more.
You'll
be
D.O.A
Creep
through
your
house.
As
quiet
as
a
mouse.
Tie
you
to
the
chair.
Shave
your
hair.
Diabolical
prods
into
your
brain.
But
making
sure
you
can
still
feel
pain.
You
won't
have
a
head
no
more.
You
won't
need
bread
no
more.
You'll
be
D.O.A
Prod
#1 motor
skills
Prod
#2 speech
skills
Now
wait
to
see
if
KJ
kills.
You
won't
have
a
head
no
more.
You
won't
need
bread
no
more.
You'll
be
D.O.A
- KJ Abyzz -
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Dreams
Become
Nightmares
Welcome
to
the
world
that
will
put
you
on
your
knees.
It will choke you until you can't even breathe.
Come follow me as I'll show you around town.
You'll enter with a smile and leave with a frown.
Everyone thinks that they can get ahead of one another.
You think you have family, you'll be fighting tooth and nail with your brother.
Welcome
to
the
world
where
your
dreams
become
nightmares
Your closest friend will become your biggest enemy.
You may doubt me now but just you wait and see.
Everybody are wolves in sheep’s clothing.
You think you've taken a step ahead.
But really you've taken a step back.
Already doing things that you swore you wouldn't do.
As you spread your legs while laying on your back.
Welcome to the world where your dreams become nightmares
Telling
yourself
that
it
was
only
a
one
time
thing.
You
find
yourself
doing
it
more
often
than
not.
Finally you grow strong and refuse thinking you have nothing to loose.
Waking up the next morning with cuts and bruises.
Finding out that you were taken advantage of from everyone you work with.
You venture into work the next morning as they're all talking about your performance.
It involves a video highlight reel.
Welcome to the world where your dreams become nightmares
You find yourself on top of the building where you work.
Looking down and taking one last step.
- KJ Abyzz -
Find Yourself - Featuring Kennie Kayoz
I'm
sorry
that
all
you
see
is
what
I'll
always
amount
to
be.
An
that
what
you
see
before
you
is
exactly
what
you
see
in
me.
Everything
has
gotten
me
feeling
so
small.
Seems
like
I'm
walking
on
cracks
and
everyone
is
awaiting
me
to
fall.
Me
an
KJ
are
two
different
people.
Even
though
the
line
between
us
are
really
narrow.
An
yet
at
times
the
only
thing
we
have
in
common
are
our
sorrow.
I'm
sorry
that
we
had
to
do
this
to
get
things
off
our
chests.
But
if
you
haven't
understood
this
yet
then
you
really
wouldn't
understand
the
rest.
As
you
may
have
already
figured
out.
Kennie
an
I
have
been
blown
the
fuck
on
out.
Of
Proportion.
To
make
our
minds
seem
that
we
have
that
much
distortion.
Not
knowing
what
there
is
left
to
give.
Sometimes
pondering
if
we
really
have
anything
to
live.
We're
sorry
that
all
you
can
see
is
what
I'll
always
amount
to
be.
An
that
what
you
see
before
you
is
exactly
what
you
see
in
me.
We're
nothing
much
to
really
look
at.
If
there
is
a
empty
corner
then
thats
where
we'll
be
sat.
Looking
for
someone
who
understands
us.
All
this
anger
built
up
inside
just
wants
to
make
us
cuss.
We're
sorry
that
all
you
can
see
is
what
I'll
always
amount
to
be.
An
that
what
you
see
before
you
is
exactly
what
you
see
in
me.
- Kennie Kayoz & KJ Abyzz -
Hell.... Everywhere I go.
I
remember
waking
up
in
the
morning.
Dragging
myself
to
work
at
a
shitty
job.
They
made
fun
of
me,
they
poked
and
prodded.
They
laughed
and
made
jokes.
I
kept
dreaming
of
burning
the
place
down.
To
send
all
of
you
to
hell.
To
speed
up
your
process.
I
see
flames
everywhere
I
go.
People
just
itching
to
burn.
Hiding
from
there
lives.
Beggin
to
meet
the
one
below.
Shall
it
be
me
to
let'em
burn.
- KJ Abyzz -
House Of Dead
Where
I
live
be
house
of
dead.
You
step
one
foot
in
and
off
with
your
head.
A
quick
slice
you
won't
feel
a
thing.
Until
your
blood
starts
curdling.
Your
girl
screams
and
tries
to
run.
The
door
shuts
quick,
time
for
fun.
She
trapped
inside
the
house
of
mine.
She
be
lookin
oh
so
fine.
Tight
little
shirt,
short
lil
skirt.
Now
it's
my
turn
to
make
her
squirt.
She
teased
me
at
school.
Cause
she
thought
she
was
cool.
Now
she
awaits
her
fate.
As
the
clock
strikes
at
eight.
She
hears
footsteps
in
the
distance.
I
don't
try
to
be
quiet
as
I
want
you
to
fear
my
existence.
I
get
closer
she
tries
to
run,
but
there's
no
way
to
go.
I
come
up
behind
her
and
whisper
in
her
ear..
"hello
hoe".
She
quickly
feels
panic
and
her
heart
starts
to
race.
She
turns
around
but
doesn't
see
my
face.
The
next
thing
she
feels
is
wetness
on
her
thighs.
Followed
hearin
"it's
almost
ready
for
her
surprise".
Her
cloths
get
cut
off
via
knife.
She's
now
fully
exposed
for
the
rest
of
her
life.
As
she
will
pay
for
her
sins.
Watch
this
game
as
I'm
about
to
win.
Just
when
she
thinks
everything
is
fine.
I
have
told
her
she
has
ran
out
of
time.
The
knife
goes
in
and
slices
her
in
half.
As
blood
runs
down
her
calf.
She
will
now
be
part
of
the
house.
HOUSE
OF
DEAD.
- KJ Abyzz -
I Rip Your Heart Out.
When
I
first
met
you
I
knew
I
wanted
to
feel
that
pulse
in
my
hand.
While
holding
it
I
can't
help
but
think
of
your
life
under
a
pile
of
sand.
I
never
knew
this
would
have
been
so
easy.
From
moment
number
one
you
thought
things
would
have
been
cheesy.
It's
bout
time
that
I
rip
your
heart
out.
So
when
you
walk
into
my
room
next
you
can
scream
and
shout.
Is
exactly
how
you'd
react
If
you
walked
in
and
seen
me
swinging
from
the
neck.
The
creek
would
haunt
you
for
years.
You'd
jump
at
everyone
you'd
hear
with
your
ears.
I
just
wish
I
would
have
seen
it
on
your
face.
As
I've
always
felt
I
do
nothing
for
the
human
race.
I
take
up
space,
as
you've
always
told
me.
Which
is
why
I
always
have
fresh
scars
to
set
my
blood
free.
I
can't
help
but
feel
that
I'm
a
waste.
You
coulda
created
a
better
person
with
cut
and
paste.
KJ Abyzz
Cripple
Minds
Check
me
out,
the
one
with
the
cripple
mind.
At
sometime
I
could
have
a
nervous
break
down
then
be
fine.
Could
these
cripple
words
allow
me
to
string
two
words.
To
be
able
to
use
my
fuckd
up
voice
to
let
my
self
be
heard.
With
all
the
problems
in
my
mind.
It
seems
like
I
write
all
the
time.
Who
said
that
everything
I
do
would
work
out.
Sometimes
I
need
to
fail
just
so
I
can
get
out.
To
let
out
these
voices
in
my
head.
Some
people
think
I
would
be
better
off
dead.
What
thoughts
could
come
out
Cause
it
won’t
help
as
much
as
I
want
to
shout.
Perhaps
my
cripple
mind
will
Pay
off
in
time
KJ
Abyzz
Pop
Culture
Me
Dress
me
up,
make
me
look
nice.
Allow
me
to
stop
bein
food
for
mice.
Do
with
me
what
you
shall.
Fuck
a
job,
ya
wouldn’t
even
call.
Let
me
be
all
fake
give
me
the
money.
Hopefully
the
poperazzi
will
find
me
funny.
Let
them
snap
photos
of
me
at
my
worse.
Ask
me
the
questions,
speculate
while
I
converse.
Take
me
off
the
streets
an
put
me
in
the
spotlight.
Allow
me
to
be
fake
when
I
say
“Everythins
tight”
Never
allow
me
to
have
my
privacy
anymore.
If
I
say
the
wrong
thing
give
me
media
galore.
No
matter
what
is
said
I
won’t
sell.
So
it
don’t
matter
if
my
world
is
hell.
KJ
Abyzz
My
World
Is
Hell
Welcome
to
my
world,
it
be
hell
for
all
here.
No
matter
what
happens
ya
should
end
up
back
here.
When
you
think
your
on
your
way
out.
Don’t
look
too
far
up
the
hill,
or
ya
gonna
shout.
When
you
realize
that
we’re
just
over
the
hill
on
the
otherside.
It’s
all
on
me
to
find
the
way
out.
As
it’s
only
up
to
me
to
find
the
exit.
Even
though
my
life
is
a
continous
pile
of
shit.
When
we
gain
access
to
the
exit.
Then
finally
this
hell
shall
be
over.
An
I
shall
forever
be
getting
up.
Off
this
pile.
To
climb
mile
by
mile.
So
I
can
succeed
at
what
I’m
good
at.
Without
havin
to
deal
with
the
shit
anymore
KJ
Abyzz
Video
Fame
Start
the
job
like
any
other.
Wait
till
my
first
employee
than
another.
Grab
number
one
knock’em
out
on
cam.
Shove’em
in
the
over
an
slam
Door
be
shut.
Turn
it
up,
put
it
on
bake.
It
don’t
matter
how
long
it’d
take.
Employee
number
two.
Make’em
eat
my
shoe.
Grab
the
knife
an
a
quick
slice.
Pour
the
blood
out
into
cups.
Fill’em
all
to
the
top.
I
haven’t
even
began
to
have
fun.
Oh
look
it
be
employee
#3
I
look
to
be
all
smiles,
wouldn’t
she.
Wish
to
know
what
I’ve
been
doin.
I’d
tell
but
she’d
think
I
be
foolin.
Little
would
she
know
much
much
truth
be
behind
the
words.
I’d
slug
#3 drag
to
the
toilet
shove
the
head
in
an
flush.
Just
to
start
my
head
rush.
Drag
the
employee
back,
make’em
drink
some
cleaner
an
spit
up
blood.
Slam
the
head
to
the
floor
an
stomp
it
like
mud.
Look
at
the
camera,
knife
in
hand.
Blood
bubblin
in
the
fryin
pan.
Not
worried
bout
the
mess
Some
wicked
dreamz
I
don’t
need
to
confess.
Mixed
emotions,
wonder
if
I’ve
done
wrong.
Till
realization
sets
in
makes
things
seem
that
they
had
it
comin.
Little
did
they
know
they
coulda
prevented
it.
Employee
#4 gets
leveled
to
the
floor.
Fingers
come
off
as
easy
as
poppin
a
cork.
Grab
the
head
an
puncture
the
brain
with
a
fork.
Tie’em
to
the
table
an
cook
the
fingers,
bath’em
in
salt
to
add
to
there
agony
but
add
to
my
enjoyment.
Watch’em
suffer
as
the
stove
beeps.
As
I
be
constantly
looked
on
as
a
freak.
No
matter
what
goes
on
they
don’t
know
there
fate.
They
all
turned
me
irate.
Pissd
against
the
workin
world
down
on
myself.
Let’em
suffer
in
my
mind.
Maybe
they’ll
learn
to
survive.
KJ
Abyzz
R.I.P
Pope
The
death
of
the
man
who
is
the
head
of
the
biggest
cult
in
the
world.
As
a
new
one
is
quickly
named
so
that
they're
ready
to
run
everything
after
the
sorrow.
The
biggest
funeral
in
the
world
today
was
when
he
passed.
It
was
so
big
that
they
could
see
the
huge
groups
of
people
from
space
in
the
mass.
The
new
one
quickly
tried
to
pick
up
where
you
left
off.
Hoping
the
followers
would
quickly
accept
him,
picking
up
the
ball
where
you
unfortuately
dropped
it
off.
Perhaps
the
biggest
bit
of
news
in
the
world
this
year.
Give
it
time
as
I'm
sure
Bush
will
top
whenever
he
sits
down
his
beer.
Your
replacement
shall
pick
up
where
you
left
off
as
you
wanted
him
to.
Fighting
for
the
biggest
cult
in
the
human
race,
fighting
under
you.
As
you
look
down
upon
him
from
the
heavens
above.
Being
the
pope
was
your
golden
key
pass
the
gates
while
we
all
push
and
shove.
Will
we
make
it,
who
knows
what
the
future
holds.
In
a
world
where
everyone
can
be
so
cold.
-
Convikz
-
The
Queen
Finally
she
makes
a
trip
to
western
canada,
where
she
was
met
by
so
many.
Another
ICON
to
the
world
in
which
the
followers
flock
by
the
masses,
we
know
she
wouldn't
come
if
there
weren't
any.
When
it's
your
turn
to
pass
I
expect
the
same
thing.
A
mass
of
mass
appeal
for
the
masses
who
will
turn
out
to
see
your
departure
as
they
sing.
To
be
up
in
heaven
with
your
daughter
and
other
loved
ones
is
where
you
shall
go.
With
all
the
high
class
people
will
we
beable
to
get
into
it,
sometimes
we
think
no.
Why
is
it
that
we
never
do
go
on
without
worrying
about
the
afterlife.
Trying
to
see
what
is
on
the
other
end,
when
most
men
beat
there
wife.
The
Queen
and
the
rest
of
the
royalty
that
shall
be
up
there
is
there
any
room
for
me.
To
beable
to
kick
it
with
the
royalty
over
a
spot
ot
tea.
-
Convikz
-
May 21st Judgment Day
May
21st
Judgment
Day
is
near.
So
grab
yourself
a
beer
May
21st
Judgment
Day
is
near.
So
grab
yourself
a
beer
They
seem
to
enjoy
giving
Catholics
a
bad
name.
I
guess
no
different
then
Muslims,
people
think
they're
all
suicidal
and
insane.
I
respect'em
all,
got
love
for
everyone.
But
on
May
21st
everyone
should
have
a
beer.
Because
we
all
know
that
the
end,
is
far
from
here.
People
walking
away
from
ones
homes,
jobs
and
families.
So
they
can
be
ready
for
the
coming
of
Jesus.
Heaven
can
you
please
us.
The
world
is
going
to
end.
Let
us
all
spend.
Our
hard
earned
cash
to
buy
into
this.
Who
brought
the
Kool
Aid
this
time
cause
it
tastes
like
piss.
May
21st
Judgment
Day
is
near.
So
grab
yourself
a
beer
May
21st
Judgment
Day
is
near.
So
grab
yourself
a
beer
See
y'all
on
May
22nd
while
you
won't
have
answers.
Your
all
a
bunch
of
cancers.
Sent
into
the
world.
To
give
the
Catholic
Religion
a
bad
name.
KJ Abyzz
Be
sure
to
check
out
the
latest
news
bout
us
at
Silver
Dragon
Publishing:
http://silverdragonpublishing.vze.com
Pathetic
I know I'm not right for public.
I'll be the one sitting alone in the corner beating myself over the head with a stick.
Hoping that it'll do me in so I don't have to live the rest of my life.
Knowing that I live this hell that one calls life knowing that nobody is out there to be my wife.
I want nothing to do with this cold cold world.
There
are
people
out
there
who
can
do
better
things
with
the
time
than
I
can.
So
please
take
my
time
and
give
it
to
them.
Give
some
cancer
patent
more
life
to
live.
Give
someone
trying
to
have
a
baby
that
baby
to
love.
There's nothing out in the world for me except put downs and let downs.
I'm fat and ugly, I choose to try to write about my problems in hopes of understanding them more.
But all it does is stress me out more.
Makes me realize just how pathetic I am …
- KJ Abyzz -
MizUnderstood
I use to write thinking that I would have a shot at writing with some big name horrorcore musician.
I was trying to become the king of poetry, really.
But all this time I'm a pathetic loner sitting in his room with bigger dreams than one could fathom.
I'm the weirdo playing with his hair in public.
They
call
them
horrorcore
and
they're
on
there
ways
to
making
millions.
They're
doing
it
all
themselves
and
I'm
living
in
the
nightmare
darkness
that
I
want
to
end.
KJ
we
know
you
were
focused
here,
but
your
going
to
have
to
wait
a
minute
as
they
don't
want
you.
Things started to make me realize that no matter what I said or attempted that I was always forced into the world of “can never do it”
You
all
will
think
I'm
crazy,
cause
the
way
they
raised
me.
But
I'm
here
to
show
you
that
I'm
MizUnderstood.
Dream
I
Have
I
woke
up
from
a
deep
sleep
one
morning
wishing
I
could
quit
my
job
an
do
something
I
love.
The
next
thing
I
know
I'm
sittin
at
a
table
writin
this
out.
This
Dream
I
Have,
I
sure
hope
it
pays
off.
To
live
off
talent
is
somethin
I
really
want.
No
more
putting
up
with
hassels
of
work,
a
job
I
dispise.
To
be
able
to
live
off
a
poetic
talent
would
be
a
surprise.
This
Dream
I
Have,
is
somethin
I
want
to
pursue.
To
watch
it
grow
from
begining
to
end
is
what
I
want
to
see
through.
Late
nights,
early
mornings
somethin
I
want
to
do
away
with.
Just
to
beable
to
sit
down
with
pen
an
paper
just
like
this.
Tryin
to
hold
this
dream
I
have
intact.
It's
the
only
thing
I
can
see
myself
doin,
infact.
As
it
looks
the
only
way
to
be
a
legend
is
to
die.
Look
at
william
shakespear
been
dead
for
long
time,,
look
how
hard
he
tried.
No
matter
what
happens
from
here
on
out.
Please
know
that
I've
sank
my
heart
an
soul
into
it.
So
hopefully
when
I
fall
I
won't
land
in
a
pile
of
shit.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
At
This
Table
As
I
sit
at
this
table
I
look
at
my
friends
around
me.
I
then
wake
up
from
that
dream
realizin
I
have
none
as
no
one
surrounds
me.
In
this
empty
house
at
this
table
wonderin
where
my
life
will
lead.
97%
of
people
dislike
me
an
what
I
do.
1%
want
me
dead,
so
I
gotta
live
each
day
through.
1%
just
don't
want
to
know
me
as
I
roam
alone.
The
last
1% are
undecided,
they
have
yet
to
fall
into
a
category.
So
I
now
sit
here
at
this
table
lookin
to
see
that
I'm
all
alone.
No
longer
am
I
a
drone
of
many
people.
At
this
table
I've
realized
many
things
but
many
don't
know.
I
have
no
one
to
hang
out
with
or
talk
to,
so.
People always want to judge me on my rough exterior.
No wantin to get to know the true interior.
The
world
is
goin
to
hell
as
quick
as
a
gun
fires.
Maybe
a
bullet
is
what
my
life
desires.
Many
would
love
to
see
me
in
a
box,
a
smile
would
be
on
there
face.
Where
ever
I
go
I
hope
to
see
women
dancin
in
lace.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
The
After
LIfe
For
all
you
know
you
could
wake
up
tomorrow
an
see
me
in
a
box.
The
last
place
you
would
see
me.
Would
you
walk
out
with
a
smile
seein
me
like
that.
Or
do
you
really
do
care
bout
me.
The
after
life,
i
never
know
what
it
would
bring
to
me.
Am
I
good
enough
to
get
into
heaven
or
shall
I
rot
in
hell.
I
never
know
when
my
life
will
fall
apart
but
I
know
it
will
do
so
soon.
I
see
myself
in
the
back
of
a
car,
hurse
or
police
car.
I
can't
tell
at
this
time.
The
after
life
is
what
is
coming.
Where
I
end
up
I
have
no
clue.
As
I
sit
here
and
wait
I'll
never
know
till
too
late.
The
after
life
hounds
me
much
like
the
life
I
live.
Got
no
one
to
confide
in.
Whats
next,
will
you
be
happy
when
you
find
me
flatline.
Or
will
you
go
out
at
the
sametime.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
By
Myself
So
the
weekend
has
yet
to
really
start
an
I
already
know
imma
be
alone.
Was
told
of
a
campfire
but
I'm
not
even
shown.
The
patch
of
encouragement
for
me
to
show
up.
I
already
know
various
people
who'll
be
there
wont
want
me.
So
I
plan
a
night
by
my
self
as
little
do
many
know.
I
use
to
care,
now
I
just
shrug
an
say
"so"
This
is
just
what
Kennie
needs
more
time
alone.
As
he's
told
he'll
be
taken
into
town
tomorrow.
But
we
both
know
he
got
a
better
chance
of
dyin
from
sorrow.
Always
by
myself
is
how
he
spends
his
days.
Hidden
away
from
family
an
friends.
Friends
?, what
friends
he'll
be
honest
an
admit
he
don't
got
any.
This
nice
guy
did
finish
last,
specially
since
his
name
is
Kennie.
This
is
dedicated
to
the
man
known
as
Kennie.
To
show
him
that
I
feel
his
pain.
An
that
no
matter
what
he
does.
He'll
always
live
on
in
my
brain.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
Just
Another
Day
It's
just
another
day
when
I
wake
up
already
late.
Just
like
it
happened
yesterday
but
this
time
my
boss
is
irrate.
It's
just
another
day
when
I
get
yelled
at.
Instead
of
grabbin
a
gun
I
just
want
to
take
my
frustrations
out
with
a
bat.
It's
just
another
day
when
another
girl
dislikes
me.
Why's
it
matter
what
I
say
I
know
she's
already
got
an
oppion
bout
me.
What's
next
for
me,
as
it's
all
just
another
day.
As
no
matter
what
I
do
my
mind
is
wounded
fatally.
It's
just
another
day
as
you
keep
lookin
over
my
shoulder.
To
you
it
maybe
nothin,
to
me
I'm
gettin
colder.
It's
just
another
day
that
you
need
to
pray
for
me.
Since
I
know
it's
only
a
matter
of
time
before
I'm
taken
away.
In
case
you
haven't
realized
it.
This
is
just
another
day
that
I
must
deal
with
this
shit.
-
KJ
Abyzz
-
My
Time
Is
Now
My
time
is
now,
your
about
to
see
the
hype
is
true.
If
you
don't
realize
it
ya
will
end
up
in
the
ground
as
ya
face
turns
blue.
The
past
left,
the
future
is
here
your
readin
it.
I'm
poetry's
MVP.
The
success
isn't
inside
of
you
it's
in
me.
I
woke
up
from
a
dream
ready
to
realize
my
destiny.
My
time
is
now,
with
much
help
from
Kennie.
You
can't
keep
up
with
this
talent
while
it
takes
you
a
year
for
a
book.
I
be
droppin
12, just
to
slap
ya
in
the
face
to
show
you
I
got
12 take
a
look.
Dispite
people
scared
to
buy
what
I
be
droppin,
I'm
doin
things
my
way.
When
your
kissin
a
publishers
ass
so
your
book
can
drop.
Don't
want
to
fuck
with
me.
Try
me
once
an
you'll
see.
My
Time
Is
Now
Watch
out
as
I
run
into
your
work.
Lookin
psychotic
actin
all
bizerk
My
Time
Is
Now
I'll
be
livin
forever.
Face
it
now,
your
end
is
over.
KJ
Abyzz
Tonight... Tonight...
Tonight...
Tonight...
It's
the
night
that
you
won't
forget.
Tonight
is
the
night
that
you'll
forever
regret.
A
quick
swing
of
the
axe.
We'll
watch
the
blood
run
down
her
back.
Tonight... Tonight... OFF WITH HER HEAD.
- KJ Abyzz -