To the Little Girl who loved to Dance
“Inspirational Poems and Prayers”
By Anica L. Walston
Photographs by Charity Brown
Copyright © 2011 Anica Walston
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Dedication
To
Diamond Coren Brown
February 25, 2000 -February 16, 2011
Part I
My Prayer
Daily Prayer I
Purpose
Daily Prayer II
At what Cost
Daily Prayer III
Part II
Disobedience
Daily Prayer IV
Lord’s Corner
Daily Prayer V
Dreamer
Daily Prayer VI
Part III
Paths
Daily Prayer VII
Melanin
Daily Prayer VIII
My last cry
Daily Prayer IX
Part IV
My eight deadly sins
Daily
Prayer X
I heard him say..
Daily Prayer XI
Inspired
Daily Prayer XII
Part V
3 a.m.
Daily Prayer XIII
Do you know what praise it?
Daily Prayer XIV
I saw heaven
Daily Prayer XV
Part VI
Restore my family
Daily Prayer XVI
There is doubt
Daily Prayer XVII
If it had not been
Daily Prayer XVIII
Part VII
Daily Prayer XIX
Does it really matter?
Daily Prayer XX
Beautiful
Daily Prayer XXI
Part VIII
We can smile together
Daily Prayer XXII
A heavy heart
Daily Prayer XXIII
Respectfully yours
Daily Prayer XXIV
Part IX
You Decide
Daily Prayer XXV
A breath of fresh air
Daily Prayer XXVI
Make a choice
Daily Prayer XXVII
Part X
Contract
Daily Prayer XXVIII
How?
Daily Prayer XXIX
Daily Prayer XXX (Evening Prayer)
To the little girl who liked to dance
When I first started my walk with God, I would find myself in settings where the individual leading the prayer would have these elaborate renditions, and offerings of praise. I was jealous because I was a new servant and I wanted what everyone else had. I wanted to freely express my sentiments to God. Then I learned from a good friend that it is not what you say and bellow, but it is, what is in your heart. Therefore, I began to talk to God as if he were my best friend. Through my process, I learned that I had to develop a personal relationship with God.
As my faith increased I found that I could talk to God and be speak freely with my words That is when my thoughts and prayers to God became effortless. They were not elaborate prayers. They were conversations, which I shared with my Lord and Savior. I realized he knew all of me, my thoughts, and how I felt.
As you read these poems, I hope that you are able to relate from your own personal experiences. On my journey, I realized God planted the necessary seeds and touched my heart so that I could be self-aware.
Most of the time we don’t even realize how important it is to express. There is value in every expression whether it is positive or negative. It allows us to understand and to put life into perspective. It can teach us to be unbiased and objective. My lessons are just that, my sentiments of daily trials, and triumphs I have had.
I put my thoughts into words and placed them on a canvas to paint a picture. They are small bursts of inspirations that can be vital from day to day. At the end of the day, before we close our eyes we must appreciate the joy of God’s wonderful creations. I thank God I was able to embrace my thoughts and share them with all who wish to read.
PART I
It is morning it is new day. This day has been shaped and carefully molded in the loving arms of God. Make the day a gift. “The gift of obedience.” A gift from you to God; for if you are obedient God will surely show you favor. Remember a day is never duplicated so make the best of this day. Start by thinking of ways to please God and execute.
My
Prayer
Dear
Lord
Today has not been the greatest day
And my spirit will
not allow my tears to fall
from the wells of my eyes
And I was
hoping if I envisioned the light
Then it would break cycle of
endless stutter and stumble
Lord,
I just don’t no
sometimes
But I am assured of your glory
Am I supposed to have
these feelings?
I should be encourage
So Lord, I don’t have
much to say
But I will express
That today is hard
And
tomorrow will not be duplicated
But if the trial expands in an
apparent chaos
Lord
Then I, your
servant will just hold on to your glory
I will hold on to your
strength
And right now while I write
I will hold onto your
word
Daily Prayer I
Oh father the day starts
and I often consider not taking on the challenges, concerning myself
with the woes and hatred ahead
I do fear
as most men do,
but my
fear is only of you
I cannot allow peoples thoughts and behaviors
to control me
Even in my minds despair
Sometimes when I pray
My mind often wanders
The turbulence causing a digression in
my stream
Lord, I do show weakness and allow my flesh to guide my
mind
Which will never work if we are fighting against
principalities
Sometime, I appear to smile but there is still
sadness in my eyes
That void is the real
that
feeling of emptiness sometimes shatters my cognition
And I
recognize only you can fill this pit
So I must never act in
haste
I dare not ask for strength
because I do not wish to
face any additional trials
But if it is your will Lord then
It
must be done
I will just trust in you so that my day can be
counted all joy
I will press through my
feelings
And moments that causes
Me to scrape the bottom of
sorrow
I will remember to embrace your word
And the positive
transmissions from the universe
Even in the day’s apparent
imperfections
I must witness perfection
For
God does all things perfect
So I just pray for guidance and mercy
for the day will not be heavy once it has passed
Father I
praise and honor you
for you are the Constant and Greatness in my
life
Amen
Purpose
It is purpose
it is what
makes us whole
we fight, we cry, we live
for the purposes
The
purpose that frees us from the evil that tries to tear us apart
our
families
our sisters, our brothers, the races, the countries
It
is the purpose that wells hatred in our heart
that fights those
that are smaller than us
those that can’t fight or defend
themselves
It is the purpose to believe in idles, science, Buddha,
Muhammad, and Jesus Christ
it is what we want to believe in
a purpose
The purpose of man and
humanity
The purpose that puts our poor in ghettos
and our
ignorant in politics
It is a purpose
it is the obliviousness
that we fight every day
and hope that we win
even if we don’t
have a chance
It is a purpose
That makes me calm, angry, bitter, and happy
at the same time
It is my purpose to journey
on, and face the trials
that God has lain before me
It should
be our purpose to live in one accord
in perfect harmony
But is
our purpose to continue to deny
that without his blessings
It
would not be possible to have a purpose
It is our purpose
It is
our fight
It is our deliverance and justification
It is what we
love
Who we love
Where we love
It what we need to have
purpose
Daily Prayer II
Dear father last night
I went to bed with a song
of rejoice in my heart
and it lingered in my spirit
Until you
blessed me to open my eyes
and smell the rays
from the
sunshine
I want to say thank you
because there are days when I
feel that
there is no congruence
I feel like the wrong key was
struck
and it bound my spirit into a lapse
Father forgive me
because I sometimes forget
that your hands touch everything that
moves and breaths
So that I may realize
The trial, is but my
test
to remember my faith
And
when I forget
That you are guiding me through temptation
The
devil will attempt to fill me with shame
and because of your
righteousness in me
I know that, it is not of you
For you are
merciful
and you greet me in my good and bad
You console the
emptiness
that seems like and abyss of emotions
that hide in
my subconscious
You are my beginning
My knight in shining
armor
My prince on a white horse
You are the omnipotence in my
life
Even in my saturation of the mundane
you still uphold me
My push to thrive
My push to righteousness
My moment of
salvation
Lord I thank you for the daily revelation
And
promises kept
For you are a God of his word
And your word
lives in me
Amen
At what Cost
I look in the mirror and realize
That I see
The hurt, guilt, and shame
I see that my color has turned from a golden sunray to a gray prison wall
My finances dwindled, because I hold the security in the domicile
I am frustrated trying to figure out when we switched roles
Am I a man?
Am I the provider?
Clearly, I didn’t read your word, to understand my place in Gods kingdom
Clearly, I made decisions without Gods counsel
But I was in love
In love
What is in love?
Cause according to me it is okay for someone to beat you down mentally and spiritually
It is ok for me to work like a dog and supply everyone’s need
Clearly, I am hypocrite
I know better
I know what I wanted
And I am aware of my expectations
They are all clearly outlined in a resume for those seeking employment
But I didn’t screen the applications
I settled
Thank you Satan
For reminding me the cost of ignoring God
Daily Prayer III
Today father
I pray for
clarity
Validity
Spirituality
and a
Mature
mentality
A step ahead of those who wish to be lost
Even in
your freedom of will
Father I choose you
For I don’t know
perfection like you
I don’t understand mercy, as you hand it
out
But I watch those that are ignorant
Blaspheming; energy
from their poor cognitive processes
I do humble myself, for at
times, I know not what I do
In consciousness my awareness becomes
minimal
I have allowed my flesh
To hold my peace captive
So
I look to the heavens for those guiding lights
Clarity in that, I
know which direction
Validity, in the truth of my father’s
promises
Spirituality, as my father runs through my soul
And
the mentality to uphold his words!
Thank you
Father
Amen
Part II
So when you are trapped don’t look for the exit, close your eyes, fall to your knees, and allow his mercy, to start operating on your soul.
Disobedience
I will not scream because you refuse to listen when I spoke
I will no longer cry because you have hurt my feelings
I will no longer fear because you have threatened my life
I will no longer be in rage because you don’t appreciate the calm
I will no longer run because you can’t catch me
I will no longer apologize because you have beaten me senseless
I will no longer be aroused because you have an erection
I will no longer refute love because you don’t love me
I will no longer surrender to alcohol and pills because you have made me nervous
I will no longer be indecisive because you made all the decisions
I will no longer be restless because you didn’t allow me to sleep
I will no longer be interrupted because you didn’t want me to pray
I will no longer surrender my soul because someone told you, you were God
I will no longer be selfish because you refuse to share
I will no longer neglect my child because you want my attention
I will no longer be afraid of being a woman because you chose not to be a man
And I will not look back because I refuse to turn to salt
Daily prayer IV
Today Lord
I wish you to bless my
tongue
for at times my words
do not always, reflect the
positive images of life
I have a habit of discounting my
fruitfulness
Lord
By not being, aware of the power of
expression
Even when I speak casually,
I should be conscious
at all times
So that I am not leaving the devil an open door
Lord I cannot allow him a pass at the gate
Because I didn’t
chase my tongue
In my conversation Lord tame my spirit
So that
when I speak
I speak love and life into
existence
Lord tame my spirit, so when I breathe
I breathe
life into the newly planted seeds of success
Lord when I cry,
replenish my soul from the woes and cares of the day
Lord in my
confusion, speak equilibrium into consciousness
For Lord I know
from your words
And with them, I fill my cup
so that I am
overflowed
If I submit to your words then my anointing will expand
So that I may share a captivating life with all your wonderful
creations
So that I may lead by example
For these things are
promised by you
So Lord with a tongue that is used wisely
Can be respected
and
embraced
For I am able to use words that will
impact those in a
positive realm
That too wish to be enthralled in your grace
Amen
Lord’s Corner
When the bills arrive
and the how is unknown just stop and take a deep breathe
There’s
no time to allow the devil in your sight cause it could cause you to
be careless
When the cabinets are almost bare, anxiety ignites,
and your stomach begins to rumble
Bend on one knee, shout some
praise, smile, and become eternally humble
When the love and
security is gone, you feel empty and want to claim defeat
Remember
you words, lessons learned, and fall directly at his feet
Favor
will be shown by a merciful man who will never be a foreigner
Just
remember to take your burdens to the Lord and leave them in the
Lord’s Corner
Daily Prayer V
I smile
As the day
begins
My new beginnings of life
I smell roses and my heart
will whimper at the site
Of his wonderful name
I am empowered
to move closer to his path
of righteousness
My soul is hoping
to fill my cup
with a rejuvenation of his spirit.
I am elated
with the opposition for I will see my father’s works manifest into
glory
Only as my day begins
can
I evaluate to the sweet birth of the intangibles and tangible
New
beginnings
I feed off of his proposition of pearly gates and
faraway places that overflow with the sweet nectar of the land
It
is my peace that makes the day glorious
It is my carefree heart
that sings his song
Lord what wonder
oh what grace
And for
this, I am thankful to open my eyes
and employ your beauty
Thank
you father
As my day begins
Dreamer
I dreamed of wealth,
prosperity, beauty, and faith
I dreamed of sacrifices, hope, love,
and fate
I dreamed of giants and natures frolicking fruits
I
dreamed of times spent together in my youth
I dreamed of love
lost, loved gain and the love that I still seek
I dreamed of
happiness and strength for the strong and meek
I looked toward God
to complete me and keep me still
I dreamed a dream and prayed it
was real
Daily
Prayer VI
So
today father
I am full of emotion
That I don’t understand
I
pray to you
for I need an ease
I
know where these feelings stem from
I just don’t know why they
are here
I pride myself on delighting in my control of falling on
your word
But today Lord there is a disruption in my spirit
It
is a feeling of loss
It is a feeling of missing something that use
to be tangible
It is a feeling of separation
It is a feeling
of unwanted isolation
I just want to belt out and scream at the
heavens and shake hell
For I feel
Like I am overwhelmed with
sentiments of tarnished remembrance
Things that did not benefit my
spirit
And I still held them close
Lord please take me back to
my feelings of calmness
Please rejuvenate your power
For I
feel like a child lost in a place
Of woe
I cannot maintain
this feeling for surely I will die
I need you to breathe life back
into my thoughts
Dissipate the feeling of sorrow
Restore me
Lord
For I no longer
want to feel the anxiety of lost
Part III
If everything seems to be moving at a slow pace, do not hit the fast forward button, be patient. Trust that God is working. Continue to prayer and stay faithful. As long as you are obedient and are productive, God is always moving at his pace even if you get antsy and want to move faster.
Paths
If I were not able to taste the cool of an ice cube
I would not know what it is to have tasted the snow
If I were not courageous
I would not know what it is to have fear
If I were not impatient
I would not know what it is to be humbled
If I were not indignant
I would not know what it to find euphoria
If I did not fast
I would not know what it was to be hungry
If I did not lie
I would not understand the importance of truth
If I did not cry
I would not know what it is meant to purified
If I did not run
I would not know what it means to stand still
If I did not submit
I would not have the opportunity to find glory
If I did not die
I would not know what it is to be born again
If I did not sing
I would not know what it is meant to be heard
If I did not write then
I would not understand what it is meant to be relevant
If I did not seek God
I would still be trying to understand…
Why am I lost?
Daily Prayer VII
Lord I here silence