Acknowledgements
Thank God for the talent, mind and soul.
Mom and Dad for the nurturing, morals, intellect and insight.
Keith Rogers for the vision.
Friends and family for the undying support.
BackTalk! poetry troupe for the movement.
contents
Phase 1: Caterpillar
moonlight
red light/green light
deja´ vu
oshun’s fool
3 wishes
my rose
Phase 2: Cocoon
hold me
as we lay
in bloom
8th wonder: I wonder
earth angel
commitment: the 3 keys theory
Phase 3: Butterfly
temptation
a long distance daydream
by candelight
prisoner of love
withering rose: winter in the garden
searching
better to have loved and lost
Phase I:
Caterpillar
moonlight
drape
me in moonlight
and shield me from the sun
take my senses of
touch and sight
and let me freely run
i
may fall but i will rise again
only to run right back to you
all
i wanted was a true friend
i ended up with my dream come true
now
i`m the swelling ocean
and you make me want to move
you`ve set
my soul in motion
and once again you prove
that the
night lives for the moonlight
that i do it all for you
Red Light. Green Light
Green light...
Everyone’s had a crush
That went bust
Or rather pop
It started when your jaw dropped
From viewing the long drop from the top
Of the mountainous rollercoaster of your emotions
Then your heart stops
Despite all your might
Those damn fantasies take flight
And you invite them into your mind
You hope to find yourself
With that special someone
Wining and dining
Hot
days and even hotter nights filled with fun wall climbing
Soul
rhyming and resonating
After weeks of dating
But these are just visions you’ve been creating
Because you’re still waiting
For some signal or sign
That the two of you could become one of a kind
Like that winning hand that takes all bets
When your number’s called you’ve got to come correct
Because you’re mates been checked
Like this was chess and she’s that queen
Moving all around your mind and capturing your dreams
But for the time being the board is full
Of players but no moves have been made
Because you’re still afraid
You hesitate to make your move
Because your more worried about stalling than being smooth
Plus you’ve got something to prove
And everything to lose
Like if you ej-act-ulate prematurely
Besides surely this honey will see
The promise and possibility
Of a he and she becoming a we
So you tell yourself to take it easy
Because you’re not even the first car in line
So you’ve got no choice but to take your time
Hurry up and wait for your moment to shine
So forget that she’s fine and just enjoy the ride
Taking her sharp turns and speed bumps all in stride
And maybe one day she’ll be sitting by your side
But slow down
There are no rights on red
So just be patient instead
Quit thinking about laying her down in your bed
And concentrate on the rough road ahead
Because even though she’s a thoroughbred
If you approach her from the back
You will get kicked and smacked
Right back to 0 mph
When there are no winks or blinks to go on
Maybe it’s best that you move on
To some other road on the other side of town
Where there are less traffic lights and smooth asphalt on the ground
Besides your bound to wind up where you’re going eventually
He who outlasts will win the game
Then you’ll see that the road is the same from every lane
Just now you’re seeing it through fogged up windowpanes
But you’re mind is clear
Because you worked hard to get here
With her the one you call your crush
Just remember that before you submit to lust
This crush is bound to bust
Or pop
like screeching tires after a fast stop
Red light.
Dejá Vu
I sit quietly in the corner table of a coffee shop absorbed in reading sipping Caramel Macchiato to amplify my senses
Page after page I flip, as the mystery unfolds
our hero is fast on the trail of the villain who has captured a damsel in distress
Suddenly I get a feeling
a feeling that someone is stealing glances and taking chances to look my way
I stop reading to look up and around to open my ears to sounds and my third eye blinks back from the force of the energy she’s sending me
"Can you feel that?"
she whispers on the wisp of an exhaled puff of breath and cigar smoke
I become hypnotized by the rings of smoke floating like lazy dragons out of the antique pipe protruding from the left corner of cherry red lips
They pucker and pout as she stops staring to inhale
and I read the sensual story of luxurious eyelashes
The tale of two delicate fingers
that hold the pipe with an air of subtle elegance
The relevance of the book in my slightly shaking hands eludes me and I start the conversation with, "Excuse me..."
Hours pass and the early morning sunshine grows in intensity
as noon approaches I barely notice
We are finishing each others sentences and drinking in each other
like the coffee other people consume as they enter and exit talk and read meet and greet live and love
I realize after a long silence in which a million unspoken wishes become granted that I am seeing myself from inside her warm pools of sensual mystery
"Do I know you?"
...those were the first sweet words she said when I sat down and now I believe she does
We spend our lunch engaged in oral intercourse
as we walk mind in mind through the park
Day becomes night spring becomes summer months become years all in the course of one conversation
I now know that I will never tire of my pipe dream my pipe queen that I always knew was waiting in the shadows for her curtain call
I start to fall head over heels for her sex appeal
when I jerk awake slightly embarrassed that I had fallen asleep so easily
And then I see a dream of pouting cherry red lips
puckering and beckoning me into action
Or reaction
to the vision that came of a love that was true.
Or maybe
it’s just déjà vu
you are the big bang that gave birth to my rising star opened the lid on Orion’s jar of pent up emotion you created an ocean of lustful possibilities and galaxy’s of intrigue 20,000 leagues under we the rest stare in wonder at our celestial foreplay they cover there eyes from the glare when i cry comets rain from one touch of your molten surface on purpose i fell into your black hole knowing all the while you
were a super nova now like Noah you and i me and you we(2) watch other planets divide while we ride Pegasus into a nexus of undeniable passion satisfaction guaranteed by my need and my thirst so do your worst it is by far the best i`ve ever had and i`ve never been this glad, i mean i’m ecstatic to be an addict you are my worst habit and i am just (1) more satellite stuck in your gravity’s pull call me
Oshun`s fool
(3) Wishes
Say lady,
You can’t enslave me
But you can save me
You can’t kill me
But you can heal me
Don’t you want to get to know the real me?
Because if I was you
From that fly hair down to them high-heeled shoes
I would grab me
And try my best to have me
I would hold me
But try not to control me
I would want me
But never ever front me
I would love me
And place only God above me
You see the best things in life are free
But they come in limited quantity
And low supply
So look me deeply in my eyes
See that I’m everything you’ve ever wanted in a guy
Something you’ve always wanted to try
But didn’t think you deserved to have
Baby just do the math
I’ve been waiting a lifetime for you to stumble across my path
I’m like that love genie you’ve always wanted to ask
For three wishes
Of sensual kisses
While we watch the sunset
Or telling you everyday that you’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met
And I would never forget
How much you mean to me
Because every day would be a celebration of our anniversary
I would love you for loving me
And be amazed at how you are much more than you seem to be
And when I tell you that we were always meant to be
You would want to make love to me
You would want to fall in love with me
But could you allow yourself to feel that free
If with all this you agree and your answer is sí
Remember to keep your wish limit to (3)
And then follow me
Into ecstasy…
My Rose
Roses in the garden wilderness
Bloom during all four seasons
As I wander through this garden viewing nature’s beauty
I am enticed even further into the colorful depths
Each flower I pass beckons to me
Reaching out to touch me with soft rouge fingers
Calling to me with pheremonal aromas
That only roses possess
I find that resistance is my only chance for survival
From an eternity of floral bliss
Among a sea of thorns
For beneath the surface of all beauty lies the potential for pain
These thoughts help me keep my distance
But distance is the only relative of closeness
And this relativity keeps me searching towards my desires
For the pollination of my pure feelings and emotions by the flower of my affection
So I choose a delicate beauty
Hoping to cultivate a love
That will grow to be more beautiful than any other natural phenomenon
But alas, hopes last only a small while longer than dreams themselves
And I am awakened from this dream
By my life force bursting forth from the bite of the wild flower
As I prick the bitter sweet thorn from my hand and taste my own pain
I experience my first taste of love
And this memory of my first experience in the wild
Has haunted my dreams
Until in another when
I found my rose again...
Phase II:
Cocoon
hold me
i need a woman that can hold me down
really, i just need a woman that will stick around
after she`s been around my mental town
seen my ups and downs
my smiles and frowns
and still wants to help pick me up off the ground
don`t get me wrong i can get up by myself
but sometimes even the strongest brotha needs a little help
see i`ve been out here livin fo self
through like 32 revolutions
so i`m tired of spinning, i`m tired of lovin and losin
tired of pickin and choosin
chicks that never should have been chosen
leavin my mentality frosty and my heart frozen
but i`m changing and growin
into the man i always shoulda been
a brotha that can bring home the bacon and take the time out to be a friend
a lover and a healer, down to ride till the end
so let us ride together
and when the road gets rough our love will get even better
stronger, lastin longer than even the toughest tempest
because for me thunder and lighting no longer hold my interest
only you can keep me coming home to roost and rest
and help me pass any life test
baby my life was a mess before you found me
that`s why i always want you around me
because you comfort me
whenever you hold me
not for just one night but for all eternity
internally i was bleedin needin a nightingale to save me
what i got was a queen, a mother, and a lady
baby, the haters may play me but they can`t fade me with you in my life
because we are a cipher a circle that cannot be broken
and i`ve never been this open to anyone
but your not just anyone
you are the one and only sun that i need to keep me warm
you are the one and only moon that i need by me in the gloom
we bloom like african irises coming together through life’s stresses
when i think of your ebony tresses
i get visions of you in wedding dresses and me in a tux
baby you`re stuck with me because i`m never letting you let go of me
so just keep holding me
never let me go
As We Lay
In your eyes I become happily hypnotized and fall into a daze
Melting like a well-licked lollipop from the heat of your summery gaze
Deliciously drowning in your double puddles of chocolate sensual mystery
There is no hope of ever rescuing me
With just one touch from your silken skin
I feel the electric shudders beginning from within
As I sensually shiver from aftershocks in the afterglow
All of my senses disrupt, and my blood stops its flow
These feelings I cannot deny I just want you
With your transcending beauty that belongs to so few
Ever since you entered my cipher and claimed my heart
I’ve come to realize why between us Cupid aimed his loving dart
So step closer to me let me bathe in your perfume
As we dance beneath the moonlight in Mother Nature’s ballroom
And let me wipe away any tears of hurt and pain
Because my love will never leave you I will always remain
By your side as we lay in fields of dandelions and tulips
Our mouths press closer together beginning our two soul’s eclipse
In this midsummer memory of a time not long past
Until eternity will my inner fire for you last
For this is dream from which we never have to wake
To those hurtful realities of strife and heartache
In these moments we rise above all of this
Into the realm of love and peaceful happiness
Just promise to stay with me through the good and the bad
And I will promise to give you the most fulfilling experience you have ever had
Because of my love for you my beautiful soulful queen
Let us sail away on love’s Lake Serene
Allowing the wind and fate to push us where they may
As through life hand in hand we make our way
There are not enough words to express how much you mean to me
As we celebrate with each passing day our love’s anniversary
In Bloom
In another when...
I found my Rose again...
...And as we retreated to our corner of the garden wilderness, to plant our roots down deep. I stole kisses lightly from her petals, remembering why love was so sweet. My rose continued to bloom for me. In this, the spring of our happiness. The wind was light. The sun was strong. Then came the ultimate test. It dawned upon me like a daydream, that i could not take my rose with me. Away from her life in the garden, to spend time with me by my stream. Tears then descended from my eyes. Landing on the grass between us. I only longed to remain in her vicinity, until everything else became a memory. For in all of my days of wilderness wandering, I had never been able to find. A creation as beautiful as this, and a love that i could call mine. She tried to stretch her roots to me, willing to follow me to the end of the woods. But to love her best i had to let her go, my tears leaving water for her to grow…
I left the garden that day, my heart heavy like lead. But i vowed to return to her often, to lie in her flowery bed. Each and every time thereafter, that i found my Rose again, was like a dream come to life. Kissing time away under the foliage, hand to petal, and natural life to natural life.
We pollinated each other, in the garden my Rose and i. I had found the perfect lover. We took root beneath the trees. And unlike with any other that ever came before, my love and affection was always pure. I never strayed. As our love grew wild as a field of dandelions, and as sweet as a jasmine glade. I received exactly what i came here for.
Together again.
I would not wish for more...
8th Wonder: I Wonder
I’ve never seen the Aurora Borealis emblazoning a cold winter’s sky
But I have seen the fireworks when I look into your eyes
I’ve never scaled Mount Everest and stood at its glorious highest precipice
But I have been sent higher by the force of just (1) kiss
I’ve never walked the length of China’s Great Wall
But I have watched in amazement as down your back you let your dark hair fall
I’ve never been guided to shores of Alexandria by the blazing beacon of the Lighthouse there
But I have been utterly mesmerized by the sensuously hypnotic quality of your stare
I’ve never visited Olympia or the fabled statue of Zeus, God of the Greeks
But I have waited hungrily to gobble up every word that you speak
I’ve never stared in awe at the incredible beauty of the Hanging Gardens of Babylon
But I have been pondering, which is more beautiful, you or a new day’s dawn
I’ve never knelt humbled by the greatness of the Temple of Artemis at Ephesus
But I have been humbled by how you make beauty look effortless
I’ve never paid homage to the great souls that rest in Halicarnassus within its Mausoleum
But I have valued you as more precious and priceless than any artifact in any museum
I’ve never sailed beneath the giant legs of the protective Colossus of Rhodes
But I have in your honor written many an ode
I’ve never trekked through the blazing desert to gaze at the Great Pyramids of Giza
But I have gone to insane lengths just to please ya
I’ve never stood within the mystic ring of Stonehenge and wondered how
But then again I have never felt the way I feel right now
The truth is I haven’t been to many places in this world or seen many of its wonderful things
But I have felt so in love that I wondered if you would accept this diamond ring
It’s not an Aztec Temple, the Egyptian Sphinx, or even the Taj Mahal
But I wonder if together we could be more wonderful than the total of them all
I wonder…
Earth Angel
You must have got all the beauty sleep you ever needed before you were born
Because you are the epitomy of the female form
Your soul has this warm comfortable glow
And whenever I mention We and Destiny you simply reply, "I know."
I could write 1,000 poems each for your eyes, lips and hips
From the crib to the grave I wanna be your love slave
Besides all that you're the only woman besides my momma that ever got me to behave
And your mind
Your mind is so fine
I wanna wine and dine your cerebellum at the hyperthalamus cafe
I want to join your left and right brain in an embrace and then jump in the way
I want to search through the card catalogue of your every memory
And see if you remember me from a millenia ago
Now
only God can save me
And
judge me
Because
I`ve found an earth angel to love me
You’re
the only one that knows how to touch
me
Deeply
Mentally
Physically
Spiritually
My
life’s purpose becomes clear
When
you whisper in my ear
Sweet
something’s that send me spinning
I
know I’ve loved you ever since the beginning
Ever
since Adam and Eve started sinning
In
this winding road of life you taught me how to read the signs
To
value my mind and recognize my heart
From
the start
Of
a love deeper than the Trench of Marianis
I’ve
been lost and found in the depth of your eyes like the city of
Atlantis
If
I could have planned this
The
script would not have changed
Except
I would have asked you on the first day we met to carry my last
name
Because
in the portrait of life destiny is the frame
That
holds us together through the storms this life brings
I
want to make this an all life thing
You
make my soul sing
Sweeter
songs than canaries in the spring
You
shine brighter than the flawless diamond ring
That
I gave you
Now
I know there’s nothing on this Earth greater
Than
you
My
earth angel
commitment: the (3) keys theory
(34) years ago
i got pushed out
i’ve spent the last (34)
trying to get back in
deep within your love’s den
where the lights are dim
but the fire keeps blazin
amazin, ain’t it
how our energy and synergy combine to be more priceless
than any painting rembrant ever painted
you think i say that to all the stars in the sky
and all the fish in the sea
yet still you feel compelled to be with me
and i with you
because sometimes the simplest things are true
like how a lust thang grew
from a small sapling of sexual escapades
to a love forest the size of the everglades
we make a fly team
so fresh and so clean
i smoke you and get enticing epiphany’s
of buying you (20) karat diamonds from tiffany’s
but i’m gettin ahead of myself
i’m catchin feelins like the flu and it’s been ruinin my health
that’s not how the game is played
so why do i find myself daydreamin about all the delicious love we’ve made
and will make for years to come
i don’t give a fuck that all my boys think i’m being dumb
cuz i know i’ve found the (1)
that lemon yellow sun to illuminate my atmosphere
with each kiss you evaporate my fear
and i want to revolve around you
i want to dissolve within you
until you go supernova
or until i meet jehovah
i’ll keep saying ovah and ovah how much you mean to me
with my hearts purest sincerity
you give meanin to this thing called life
just one smile from you and i forget about my stress and strife
my friends call this phase going under the knife
but i call it taking a wife, joinin my cipha within yours
makin (2) equal (1) from our hair follicles down to our pores
and no matter what rain storms may pour into our lives
i know i’ve found that prize for which many people strive
but few ever find
what we’ve got is one of a kind
and worth fightin for even worth dyin for
because with each breath i breathe i love you that much more
that’s why i’m no longer afraid to admit
from my lips to god’s ears baby i commit
to love you in sickness and in health until death do us apart
i do give you the (3) keys
the (1) to my house the (1) to my car and the (1) to my heart.
Phase III:
Butterfly
Temptation
wondering
can be troubling
a black cat with eight lives lived
curiosity
his best friend and worst enemy
how thoughts of intimacy weave
intricate
webs from which there is no escape
thinking this way
gets unsure flys caught up
everytime until the spiders venom
gets
in them
paralyzing
intoxicating
hesitating
is
cowardly but brave
a second can save your life
thinking twice
about decisions
can keep you out of a lustful prison
of your
own design
where you can't even see the bars
where it's hard
to tell fantasy from reality
yes wondering is truly a dangerous
thing
it can make you walk right up to the ledge and look over
a
fascinating beautiful nightmare
the manifestation of every fear
you hold dear and pack away
in that closet
if life had a
remote control
you could pause it
instead it keeps moving like
the tides
hypnotizing rhythms
as sensual sirens try to convince
wayward sailors
to give into them
and crash on the rocky reef
below
no
wondering would be a big blunder
your conscious
would batter you like thunder
understand that it's natural to
question
God's directions
especially when there's no
map
tapping into inner strength and faith
is the only way to
combat
overwhelming desire to give into the flesh
if this is a
test
you must study the game and pass
but know that this class
will never truly end
and this is a game that no one ever truly
wins
because sin all depends on what you believe in
but if you
don't believe in something you'll fall for anything
even the wrong
thing
so stop wondering (wandering)
and know
that following
love's path
is the only way to go (grow)
A Long Distance Daydream
At this very moment, I am trying to find something to get into. Something to do besides think about you . Because we can’t be together right now and I don’t even know how this whole thing will play out. You’re like 4 trillion miles away from me, and I’m just trying to keep it together.
Depending on the phone to ring, or something else to keep my mind off our situation. I’m pacing up and down the long halls of my cerebrum, and sometimes just when I think I’ve found a solution, it immediately gets washed away by more confusion. How much does it cost to fly there on only a weeks notice?
I’ve been noticing lately that I greatly appreciate everything you’ve done for me. And I can’t wait to see you again. Can’t wait to have my lover and friend grinning at some stupid joke I’m telling. I can almost imagine smelling your hair, or staring into those big beautiful brown eyes.
Can almost imagine settling into that wet spot between your thighs, hearing your sighs rise high like clouds in the sky. I’m crying you a river inside because I can’t show these emotions on the surface. Can’t admit how nervous I am about living with someone for the first time putting it all on the line for the hope of love. Hoping that it’s enough to keep us together forever.
Wherever I go in my travels will love be enough to stop me from dabbling in other females?
Will you hear rumors and tales about me creeping from city to city? Treating you shitty but remaining just witty enough to keep you with me? Could we blend reality and fantasy
just enough to rise above the stuff that brings most relationships down? We’re both grown and I’m not trying to own you or condone what I do but I can’t be alone. Talking on the phone once a week can’t calm the freak in me keeping me searching for lust even though it’s unjust, it’s just not enough for me to know that you’re there waiting patiently. I can’t see or understand how you do that. When I see a woman with a fat ass I just react. And lately I’ve been attracting some pretty fine ass females. They still pale in comparison, but who’s comparing them?
Not me. I’m just looking for company a warm body to spend the night with me. Having occasional moments of ecstasy, but you can have faith that it’s just sex to me. Not to say that they mean nothing. But they don’t mean more than the something I’m still holding on to.
Lucky for you few women ever get through my defenses. The suspense is killing me, like how finding out about my infidelity would probably kill you. Still you tell me that you trust me and that you love me. How real this must be, because you’re willing to put your whole life on hold or leave it behind to climb into mine where the weather is sublime but who knows how much time we’ll have to enjoy it. How long can this last? Will the past catch up to me making me see that having my cake and eating it too is easy but swallowing the shit is where the difficulty comes in?
I know I have a high price to pay for the sins I make every day you’re away from me. But one day I hope that I can say the words I Love You and do the things necessary to show you
that I owe you monogamy by kneeling on bended knee and asking you to marry me.
By Candlelight
a spark
ignites the light
banishing night
a glowing presence
becoming clear to sight
a flickering flame
begins to grow
as the flesh flows
the shadows dance
to a rhythm slow
a bright beam of light
old scenery renews
providing breathtaking views
the catalyst
for passions fuse
a burning desire
night turns to morn
the figures now worn
huddle closely
in the warmth of love reborn
a glance into the fire
hypnotized
the sun begins to rise
one kiss from the wind
the flame dies
Prisoner of Love
Love begins in the head but it ends in the heart, and once it enters the heart the pain can start
Blood flow moves the spirit, trying to take over and steer it to levels that are out of control
Constant poundings take their toll on the soul creating new roles for the actors to play
They long to stay but don’t know how to say what they truly feel
Feeling uncanny and unreal like cold steel pressing against the temple of the body
When the space is erased in the place of the brain
Drowned out by emotional rain leaving love stains and pain
With increasing persistence they struggle against this cruel bliss
Are they crazy or just too lazy to fight against loves might?
Instead they either take flight or invite themselves into competition
Signing the next line of the petition of crucifixion
For what else is love if not self-sacrifice and who is truly wise enough to offer advice?
Is extinction not a high enough price to have to pay?
But each individual must find some way out of the gray fog and mists amidst the shifts of the fists
And the fury and the worry that permeates the inner self
Takes personal wealth off of the shelf and spends what remains within
This leaves them in the void feeling paranoid
Scared to ever again let love in for to those places they have already been
And seen just how mean is the reality that they will never again be
Free
Withering Rose:
Winter in the Garden
To love her best I had to let her go
My tears leaving water for her to grow...
Do you remember the day the seasons changed?
When the sky turned gray and cold?
Tree leaves began to flee,
As the wind grew strong and bold.
I believed we were the oak,
Too solid to ever break.
Laughing at young sapling lovers,
That in the wind would bend and shake.
But they learned the lesson early,
Of what things were greater than them.
With their roots firmly grounded,
Their love could not be stripped from their limbs.
I had ignored the dove’s warnings,
Calling to me as they took to the skies.
That to remain here was to perish,
I closed my ears against their cries.
For I knew my Rose would come to me,
As her shelter from any storm.
To provide as I always had,
Comfort and love to keep her warm.
I attempted to calm her fears,
As we danced in decaying meadows.
She asked me why the trees were so bare,
And where did the rainbows go?
I had no clue of how to tell her,
So I broke down in tears.
For it was her undeniable devotion,
That was the culmination of my greatest fears.
I knew we could not survive,
In the garden for all eternity.
I longed to transport us somewhere else,
Until the cold became only a memory.
But in the months that followed,
Before our joy was buried.
I retreated from love’s winter,
As I grew more afraid and worried.
I sought comfort in my solitude,
My cooling climate making my Rose frigid.
And despite my attempts to unthaw her heart,
The winter held her frozen and rigid.
The essence of love that had once been so strong,
Was now as brittle as her thorns of ice.
I had once again bled for the dream of the garden,
And once again paid the piper’s high price.
Now in clear reflections,
Like those I viewed in the garden’s pools.
I recall her delicate beauty,
And her warm petals turned suddenly cool.
I had only longed to cultivate our love,
But I believed that of destiny I was king.
Winters stark realities left me barren
Living and hoping for the coming of spring...
Searching
I`ve been searching
For a way to stop the hurting
That is always lurking
Behind a smile that cannot reach my eyes
All my lies
Every plan I`ve devised
And every love I`ve denied
Have me drowning in a thick pool of murky despair
I try to say beware
To all the ladies that stare
All those queens and princesses so fair
Eager to climb atop my torrid throne
My soul is alone
Even though I`ve invited many into my physical home
I haven`t yet found a way to atone
For years of abusing those closest to me
I long to be free
But years of captivity are all I see
It seems that an excuse for a man is all I can be
Until you can find it in your heart
to forgive me
better to have loved and lost
cheater liar thief dog
worthless stupid pariah hog
unfair unkind untrue unwilling
destroyed denied denounced defeating
forgotten forsaken foretold for nothing
without within whimsome wanting
torn tortured traumatized turnabout
scream swear sacrifice shout
hate love me you
regret repair rebirth renew
demanding daring drifting dreaming
hoping handling hiding healing
open bleeding infected malignant
living loving learning ignorant
taken trapped teased trained
bamboozled beguiled broken brain
over through finished done
played scored lost one
games tricks stolen time
released poisoned subconscious mind
fusion division fission atomic
foolish crazy ironic comic
pierced pleasured promised pain
cumulus descent acid rain
emotionless stressed strained tried
cried tears evaporation dried
stained perpetual lead heart
cupid aim ready dart
now next notice new
walking wearing worn shoes
better once loved lost
forever knowing loves cost
mic check…qwantu, qwantu (1,2…1,2)
qwantu amaru (the lightbringer) is a current resident of new jersey and a beauty mark on the world’s expansive face. born in pittsburgh, pennsylvania he has traveled the u.s. extensively and spent considerable time abroad as well.
he wrote his first poem back in ’98 about a love battle waged and lost and he’s been using poetry to battle back ever since. complex and ever changing his writing took a significant leap forward upon joining the diverse and hard hitting backtalk! poetry troupe in 2001. somewhere between honing his craft as a passionate spoken word artist and attending florida a&m in the mba program he managed to graduate and someone actually hired this self described “conscious rebel”.
“we used to work for the massa, now i’ve got my masters, and i still work for the massa,” he says of his experience working the commercial plantations of corporate america. not letting anything stop him, qwantu is in process of completing his first supernatural suspense novel.
qwantu describes his spoken word flow as “stream of consciousness poetic truth”. for more information visit his website at www.qwantuamaru.com or e-mail him at qwantuamaru@gmail.com.