Jason Wallace
Copyright Jason Wallace 2011
Published at Smashwords
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Just as Well
I have no heart to satisfy
I am what I've made myself
Time, I find, tries to pass me by
So fast, if nothing else,
My life's a lie
I have nothing good left
But the rest, I guess, isn't worth it
The best I possess
Is a pain that hurts me
What there is, I cannot tell
But that's what I expect, so just as well
Haunting me with open arms
Grasping my all to suck me in
Terror fills my mind so darkly
Wondering if the loss is worth what we win
If you could tell me what to feel or what to give
Maybe I could finally learn to live
I have nothing good left
But the rest, I guess, isn't worth it
The best I possess
Is a pain that hurts me
What there is, I cannot tell
But that's what I expect, so just as well
What I've had since before I fell
Steal my soul, drain my life
I have no control so I can't feel alive
I have nothing good left
But the rest, I guess, isn't worth it
The best I possess
Is a pain that hurts me
What there is, I cannot tell
But that's what I expect, so just as well
I'm screaming inside but no one hears me yell
I'm dying so slowly
Why can't it kill me
I'm trying to know me
But no one does really
I'm the kind to fall in line
And quickly give up and fall behind
Lose everything to gain so little
Attempt to build myself but break
With a will so brittle
I have nothing good left
But the rest, I guess, isn't worth it
The best I possess
Is a pain that hurts me
What there is, I cannot tell
But that's what I expect, so just as well
I have nothing good left
But the rest, I guess, isn't worth it
The best I possess
Is a pain that hurts me
What there is, I cannot tell
But that's what I expect, so just as well
I have the time
When I can sometimes grab it
You could be mine
But what I have left, will you have it
Or will you leave me cold and lonely
Feeling the same as always, broken open
And knowing that I'm all I have only
I have nothing good left
But the rest, I guess, isn't worth it
The best I possess
Is a pain that hurts me
What there is, I cannot tell
But that's what I expect, so just as well
It's just as good
I don't see anything like they say I should
I cannot breathe
I cannot hear
Except everything that causes me fear
I cannot change
I cannot be
Anything you ever thought of me
But the worst you never need
Now I know I never knew that you
Would treat me so badly, the way you do
I have nothing good left
But the rest, I guess, isn't worth it
The best I possess
Is a pain that hurts me
What there is, I cannot tell
But that's what I expect, so just as well
It's just for now
I will only be around as long as you allow
I have nothing good left
But the rest, I guess, isn't worth it
The best I possess
Is a pain that hurts me
What there is, I cannot tell
But that's what I expect, so just as well
Just as much, just as well
Forever or just this once, just as well
Just Like Today
Who knew
I'd miss you
So much
That the only peace I'd get
Is fallin rain
Those short moments long ago
Weren't long enough
And the long ones alone
Just aren't the same
It was all
Just like today
Every breath I take is empty
And all the tears in me
I used to cry
Felt like a flood
Washin over me
Feelin like I would die
All hope's gone away
Because everything's just like today
I met the girl of my dreams
Who said she'd always stay
And every moment since she left
Has felt just like today
Rainy and cloudy
Miserable as I feel
The weather, at least,
Lets me know
That feelin so bad is real
Every breath I take is empty
And all the tears in me
I used to cry
Felt like a flood
Washin over me
Feelin like I would die
All hope's gone away
Because everything's just like today
Everything's blurry
But everything's gray
Everything's unassuring
Just like today
Just like today
It's all nothing
So much, it must be
Completely dark this way
Unloving, ugly
Empty, coming
To the point
You have to say
Make it go away
Every breath I take is empty
And all the tears in me
I used to cry
Felt like a flood
Washin over me
Feelin like I would die
All hope's gone away
Because everything's just like today
Everything's plenty
Of nothing but memories
Of all that's gone to shame
So much like today
Just like today
Couldn’t Give Enough
Did you know
You still have my heart
No matter where all you've been
You left, too afraid it would fall apart,
Too afraid you might let me in
Tell me, where have you gone